19 and done nothing with my life :/

[Sastual Auxels]

I didn't find Charlatan's comment too mean but thanks for sticking up and everything its appreciated that people care, Its not as easy as gettin a paper, I've done that and there are no jobs, I live in a small town.
Near Mackay in QLD, AUS for the person who was asking

[Luna Lisa]

In my view I wasn't trying to be mean either. But Charlatan could have been a little but more more nicer or subtle. And yes it is hard to find jobs in a small town. But in my view people are here to help other people. Not to tell a person to do this or that. But if I was being a little bit to harsh then I apoligize but I'm not apolizing for what I said though. But I do apolgize for being harsh.

Blessed Be.

[Sastual Auxels]

Yeah exactly, many thanks Lisa, I have enough people telling me what to do all I really need is support or people showing they care or anything positive, its like a cup and mine is empty so I'm after people to help me fill it not break it by squeezing too tight :/

[Luna Lisa]

Your welcome Sastual Auxels.

[Melindrose]

hey I apologize if it sounded like I was saying you should do this, I was trying to suggest something that you might enjoy as I enjoyed my time in; I didn't agree with all the politics but that's another issue. have you given a thought to university study?

[Sastual Auxels]

Yeah I know you weren't but military isn't on my side is all, um but university I have thought about and always wanted to do since I have the brains but its the pressure that makes me jumpie since I'd chop off my arm in order to prevent being as far into depression as I was a year and a half ago and I think the mounted pressure could send me back there but at the same time the fear of this may be more frightening that it actually is.

[Shaktis_son]

I picture op with this face while reading this...

[Sastual Auxels]

Omg lol Do I know you or something? that's so not cool lol.... Hammish?

[Melindrose]

you could go part time so there is not so much stress

[WhiteOne]

When I was 19 I hadn't done much with my life--and then I accidentally got pregnant, which made it even harder to do anything with my life. But, really, you are so young and you have choices around.

You may not be aware of your life's purpose--or the things that really motivate you, yet.

I would recommend the thread in Witchcraft School for Shadow Work. Your shadow can really cause you sabotage, and so you might find help by transforming it and taking control of your life. Shadows are an accumulation of repressed parts of yourself, that tend to become more powerful with further repressions, and then they can sabotage you by causing you to subconsciously sabotage yourself.

[Sastual Auxels]

Yeah i seen a shrink and they told me I was trying to subconsciously sabotage myself in every aspect of life so that makes sense, thanks

[_Kaimira_]

hi,

i done a life time already, first i am pregnant twins, dealing with my bf and raising a 16 year old but a mind of 8 year old boy. he suffers from turrettes syndrome, add, ocd, adhd, and high functioning autism. and i just turned 19, i have to be on the ball or everying slides. i have a lot of responsablitiy for a 19 year old girl.

hugs

[Victoria Mnemosyne]

I'm in similar shoes. I'm about to turn 20 and I feel as if I'm going nowhere. I've been depressed for years, and my grades keep slipping, I can't hold down a part time job. I know I should see a therapist, but I keep putting it off. I don't like the thought of someone going through my life... ><

The way I get through it is just reminding myself it's temporary. A good friend said something to me once when I was contemplating suicide. He asked me to remember a really happy day. Then he said, if you live and have even one more day like that, it's worth it.

I wish I had something more like advice... All I can say is, you're not alone in feeling like this. And you can pm me anytime if you want to talk.
<3

[ebenb84]

um well, my advise to you is that if you are just recovering from depression, please avoid booze. i know that it seems to make you feel better at the time but what it actually does is enhance depression. why don't you try exercise or something like that, it is supposed to actually help combat depression. you are only 19, you are still very young. i don't mean to sound harsh but it seems to me that you don't need divine intervention, you just need to get out there and start living... i mean don't sweat the small stuff. if you want a job, just keep looking. it may seem there may be nothing out there but eventually there will be. just don't give up.

[Sastual Auxels]

Yeah I know the most obvious answers are there as mentioned by ebenb84 but even these simple answers are hard to find and even the smallest things fail on me, nothing ever comes through and works out, I've almost accepted it as a fact of life that nothing will go my way and it doesn't, the only thing that HAS helped is trying to anticipate that things wont work rather than trying to make them. I tried for years to get things to work in my favour but it seems like I'm cursed or someones put a hex on me or something, if something could go wrong and make me miserable it will. I know thats part of depression to look for the bad but even when I'm happy nothing goes my way. I'm sick of things not working the way I want them too, I spend so much time drawing or sleeping because these are the things that I CAN control, when I sleep nothing goes wrong and I lucid dream so I can always create a seperate world and it is SOO much better in there, when I draw, nothing is out of question, I make the rules I make the lines and I control everything. I know we aren't ment to be in control of everything but in control of SOME thing would be nice, nothing ever goes my way. For example, I saved up money to start a graphics course which would set my life on track... they cancelled the program not just in MY town but in every town around the state, I wanted to move away from this small town and start my life and chose Townsville... it got hit by 2 cyclones, so I chose Brisbane instead and it got hit with massive floods, I saved up and bought tickets to a dream concert of mine and I got fired and couldnt afford a way back home so I had to try sell the ticket... couldnt sell the ticket and just wasted money in the whole thing... its just failure after failure and I don't understand why? I'm one of the nicest people I know and I have morals and respect and always give to others when they are in need so obviously Karma doesn't work else I'd be atleast better than where I am now.