still searching

[Zili]

Other than dreams how have your patron and matron come to you?

I know the most common form of revelance is through dream. I've been off and on this path since 2003, and still nothing I've been on this path solidly for the last 3 years. I thought perhaps since Gaia has been around since the very beginning of my life she was my matron but she doesn't have that feel anymore. I've been searching for my patron god but he's never revealed himself just keeps "poking me" in a way. Apollo keeps showing, but he doesn't have the right feel, almost as though he's just trying to mess with me.

things that are important to me (in case you may be able to suggest any Gods/Goddesses for me to look into.)
Love: Romantic deep down heart felt love
Birds: especially song birds and hawks
Divination and Dream interpretation as these are natural gifts that are like second nature to me
foxes
Life
Stability
Balance
Art

I've searched through the Greeks, Romans, Oceanic, Norse, Native American, Egyptian, Celtic, and Hindu pantheons...so far nothing has struck me as the one "poking" me.

Since I have not been able to remember my own dreams (I have only 2 two in the last year i could remember and had nothing to do with religion) what are some other ways I can find out?

[Dealande]

I still haven't found my Patron yet either, the way my lady comes to me is through meditation, I have a place I go to when I meditate. It's the same place over and over again. I know it so well, I swear I can actually feel the dirt and grass under my feet. This is where she meets with me.

She has never really spoken a word to me, it's like words are not needed - she touches my forehead and I know the thoughts she is expressing to me.

I have also longed to know my patron but feel maybe I am not ready to meet him yet, for reasons I am not sure of yet. I do think it may have something to do with the fact that I was in an abrahamic religion for so long and had such a rough time in it, that maybe the patron is waiting for me to finish healing.

try meditation it might help... I am still fairly new to this and so I don't know if this helped- hope so - many blessings!

[Zili]

I've done the meditation route as well for years and still nothing.

I did come across a goddess I showed to my friend since we're always discussing the hall of records I didn't know that this place had a name since shamans don't typically name things but discovered that this hall is the Akashic Records. The goddess I came across is one of many who most likely keep these records, Ajysyt

[Black_Tail]

At the time I found my matron and patron, I wasn't doing meditation as much. I was doing serious thinking and discovered that in my childhood, a lot of symbols came about that i clung to just because I felt connected to them (lioness, falcon, etc). I know it seems silly and kid-ish, but symbolism for me is important, its one of the main ways I express my art. So I discovered my matron was Hathor-Sekhmet and confirmed via meditation and I was happy. I researched and found so many other goddesses intertwined with her so I could basically have a whole little pantheon. But when it came to my patron, I was a little scared. Cernnunos felt very close, welcoming even, but not quite mine. It took awhile to come to terms with my patron god, Anubis. But I've come to accept both equally and both are what I have needed in my life.

sorry, that seems long..