Bit of a violent dream

[James]

Around 2 weeks ago, had this dream, violent, and I would be grateful if anyone could help me with understanding it. I had it a day before a very important festival which I was very excited over, I was worried whether it was a warning of something to happen but so far nothing's happened.

Dream's a little graphic, so yeah.

Notes
My sister and I have shared rooms ever since I was small, but obviously growing up it gets harder to tolerate your crybaby sister so I moved into my dad's office room, which he barely used. He didn't like me leaving my sister alone so I'm back to sharing.

Dream start:

I was sitting up on my dad's office room bed, and to my left was an old man, white hair, and on a wheelchair, with a very blank expression. I'd say he was British, and he was wearing a grey suit coat and all. Next I remember swiping at his throat with a dagger, and blood spurted out everywhere. His face was still blank, not at all terrified, just blank. The blood was everywhere, on the bed, on me, my face, hand, on the walls, lots of it. More than physically impossible I think , but I wouldn't know. Just, a lot. The whole time I wasn't feeling anything, no terror, nothing, just a slight bit of anger with him , barely there.

I left the room, passing the hall, and came to where the family normally assembled. I think it was 5 in the evening or a few minutes after when I killed the old man, and now it was 6, and my mom was there, after work, eating dome bread or something. I just stood behind her, looking a the tv, but not really caring. I looked at the clock, it was then I just suddenly felt this huge anger, murderous, when I realized they would find out obviously the body and mess I left behind and I would be hauled off to jail or something. I wasn't mad at my mom, and I didn't feel a hint of remorse about killing, or sadness at all. It was just anger, and I was thinking about something like, I should have made him suffer, and even more murderous I thought to myself and imagined his head being crushed and lots more blood everywhere in the office room and I was there and I was drenched in it. That was the only little remorse I had, that I didn't make him suffer because now, because of him I'm off to jail.

End dream

Cont. notes
So yeah, wasn't at all scared or feeling anything except for that anger at the end. I didn't feel empty at the start, it was just a cold, calculating feel sorta, like I didn't care about it. And no, I hadn't been angry earlier that week when I was awake or anything.

[Symandinome]

wow thats a very interesting dream im not sure what to make of it. a few things come to my mind but they are scattered thoughts but i will share them anyway

The man in the wheel chair would represent an authority figure or a way of thinking or a situation in your life that you feel is oppressing you. Your attack on him him was representative of you trying to put an end to this. You going by your mother and she is eating and tv is playing is you seeing yourself attempting to move on with normal life but then the anger seeps in because you are pissed off your going to jail which to me would represent this figure/person/situation finding another way of keepnig you from what it is your trying to do.

Dreams are often times not literal you have to pick them apart piece by piece and look for what something could also mean other then what is at face value.

[James]

Dreams are often times not literal you have to pick them apart piece by piece and look for what something could also mean other then what is at face value.

Yeah, I know, it's just I try to understand, but I don't think I'd ever understand what is the jumbled mess under my skull

When I try to think of someone in authority I feel any resentment towards I immediately think of my dad, but I was on really friendly terms for a while around the time and even the morning after when I told my dad the dream I had he was like "Oh shmit, you're dead. Be careful today, extremely and don't take any chances." which made me laugh, so no resentment there.

I'm reading up on lucid dreaming, so hopefully the next time I get a disturbing dream I can try understanding the meaning then and there after I can control my dreams more. And thanks a lot for posting your thoughts, I was feeling a little uneasy about this dream.