Confusion over the God and Goddess

[Eveline]

Ever since i found my path of paganism and witchcraft, i have been profoundly drawn to the God and Goddess. To clarify i believe in the pagan god and goddess, the two dieties containing the earth mother( who also repressents the moon) and her son/consort the sun god. As i studied more and more i started to learn more about them and that immediate connection i felt became more intense. I am still very unexperienced in magick and still very unsure about myself, but i know that it is very normal and happens to many. It's just lately i feel so so confused about everything, and am having trouble with finding myself. This praticularly relates to the god and goddess, as i long so much to connect with them but because i'm wrestling with myself it's incredibly hard. I also have a terrible blocked feeling inside me and my heart feels almost like it's aching for their connection but i can't seem to "connect". I am a very young witch (16 years old) so i thought this may be a reason but i don't have any idea what's going on. I'm sorry if this makes no sense but i had to let it out because it's awful. I know this is the right path for me and i have never felt so right, but i just want to start figuring myself out you know. Please if you can help me figure out what's going on, i could really use some guidance . Thank you!

Also just wondering, how do you see the god and goddess if you believe in them?
Blessed Be!

[AutumnMaidens]

If you're having trouble connecting with the god and goddess maybe you should try and find them all around you. Not everyone had an anchient forest around but you could go for a walk in the park, feel the cold and the ground beneath you, go to the ocean and listen for the mother her voice in the crashing waves. Unlike other religions our gods aren't far off living on some cloud, they are here, living and breathing all around us, try to experience them as such.

You can take your god/dess representitives (statues/candles/pictures/symbols) and meditate on them, ask them for a vision and maybe they will bless you with one.

I see the goddess in different forms, she can appear to me as a mother, heavy with a belly full of life, a young sprite who dances through the earths, bringing life and love wherever she goes. The god appears to me as a young man, strong and well built for the hunt, sporting two antlers on the top of his golden head.

Hope this helps
Blessings

[raynelae]

I totally agree with AutumnMaidens

I suggest just taking some time alone and meditate upon the Goddess and God. Write down how you view them. Pray. Invoke the Goddess and God inside a circle and pour out what's holding you back-even if you don't know what it is, they do. Open up your heart to the Goddess and God and call upon them daily. Talk to the Goddess and God, simply say a prayer or talk to something in nature.
Blessed be

[Eveline]

Thank you both so much, you have both inspired me. In fact when i was reading your replies i felt so blessed and emotional, like the god and goddess were with me. Thank you a thoasand times!
Blessed Be!

[raynelae]

No problem, always glad to help
I've had the same thing happen to me. I think it's part of learning who you are spiritually and letting your emotions talk to you.
Blessed be