Thoth's Exit

[Moonfire]

So a few nights ago, before I got this influx of deities trying to come into my life, there was the leaving of one deity who was very important to me. Thoth was my first god to follow in my Pagan/Kemetic/Wiccan (I'm unsure of what I am officially called so I'm not going to stress it) path and was a huge comfort for me. I found strength in him and he protected me against the nasty entity that had been plaguing me (Now banished). Emotionally he was also a huge help as he helped me get through the worst of my recent emotional troubles dealing with a nasty betrayal (something that is especially hard for me to cope with). I had felt that he had been pulling away so to speak but I did not accept it because I didn't want to believe he was leaving.

He told me a few nights ago that it was time for him to step back and that his role was done. He's not...completely leaving but he will not be a major part of my life anymore. This, of course, upset me as having him in my life was very important to me but I do understand that if he feels that it is his time to leave, then it is time. I asked him to stay with me for one last night (Which was actually pretty cool because I could feel myself in a comforting embrace all night) and in the morning he was gone.

I don't know if this is a permanent development but I feel like his leaving is also a lesson for me. I am the type of person that only sees meaningful relationships as a long term thing and struggle to let things go when I become emotionally invested. I feel like he is teaching me how to let go and trying to show me that all relationships happen for a reason (both good and bad) and that just because they are important to me or meaningful doesn't mean that they will be long term. A valuable lesson and one that I need to learn. But I do feel...really sad.

Is this kind of reaction normal? Being emotional? I'd like to think that it is but I was just curious. And if anyone can share what it was like for them, that'd be awesome too.

[Siona]

I only ever connected with and worshiped deities from the Egyptian pantheon for the first eight or so years that I was a pagan. I tried connecting with other deities and nothing ever came of it, so I just assumed I would always honor the Egyptian gods, and I was perfectly fine with that. So it was a very strange experience for me when they started to step back, and a Greek deity was getting much more persistent in getting my attention.

It honestly didn't really hit me at the time, since there were already lots of other changes happening, and there was so much going on, and so much to figure out. In fact, it didn't really hit me until a few weeks ago (and this all started five years ago!), when I took down the very last shrine to an Egyptian deity in my home that was basically sitting unused at that point (Hathor's shrine). It just kinda hit me that I'd been holding on to something that wasn't really there anymore, and it was time to move on. I know it had to happen, and I look back on all the progress I've made these last few years, but it didn't stop it from also being a sad moment, too. I think being sad is definitely a valid reaction to the loss of what was once an important relationship.

[Moonfire]

I only ever connected with and worshiped deities from the Egyptian pantheon for the first eight or so years that I was a pagan. I tried connecting with other deities and nothing ever came of it, so I just assumed I would always honor the Egyptian gods, and I was perfectly fine with that. So it was a very strange experience for me when they started to step back, and a Greek deity was getting much more persistent in getting my attention.

It honestly didn't really hit me at the time, since there were already lots of other changes happening, and there was so much going on, and so much to figure out. In fact, it didn't really hit me until a few weeks ago (and this all started five years ago!), when I took down the very last shrine to an Egyptian deity in my home that was basically sitting unused at that point (Hathor's shrine). It just kinda hit me that I'd been holding on to something that wasn't really there anymore, and it was time to move on. I know it had to happen, and I look back on all the progress I've made these last few years, but it didn't stop it from also being a sad moment, too. I think being sad is definitely a valid reaction to the loss of what was once an important relationship.

Thank you, Siona. Though I really hope that I get to continue to work with the Egyptian pantheon. I really love being involved in it and I've loved Egyptian mythologies and theology since I was thirteen (Maybe even earlier). But I don't mind at all branching out to other pantheons because I think it would be interesting to see all the things I could learn from them. :3

[SnowCat]

Think about how crowded the nest would be if the baby birds never fledged. Spread your wings! Get out there and share what you learned from Thoth! Make him proud!

Snow

[Moonfire]

Think about how crowded the nest would be if the baby birds never fledged. Spread your wings! Get out there and share what you learned from Thoth! Make him proud!

Snow

Definitely. :B I'm going to nerd out so hard.

[Lillady]

I feel that it is quite normal to feel emotional when an deity parts with you. I hope I never have to deal with that personally but I can understand. If Isis were to leave me I think I would be lost as she has been with me for so long and has helped me with so much. She has been working with me presently even harder trying to help me gain strength for another battle for the sake of my children again and I hope and pray it all works out. Having an attachement to a deity is normal as they are a friend who is there for you and you for them. Show Thoth how proud you are to have been friends Blessed Be.