Have I cursed myself??

[heidine]

I have a...well, i dont want to call it a problem, but... I hope someone could give me some advise on this...

I have always had bad luck with boys/men.. and not just a litle.. my first boyfriend wanted to kill me when i broke up with him, and some have sold drugs, been totaly crazy or something like that... im not talking just regular crazy either.. there has seriously been something really wrong with all of them (and yeah, they seem normal at first...) last guy i met, have a baby with one of my best friends sister and cheted on her all the time.. ( i didnt know before i met my friend and told her about this great guy i had met....) no need to say that it never came to a second date...

Is it possible to have some sort og curse on you from your that young?? I mean, how did i get that?!?! Cause this much bad luck just isnt normal!!

I read something about that what you send out, you get back, and that got me thinking...
Some years ago, when I was like 15, a girl kept trying to steal my boyfriend.. and one day i found out that he had met her and lied to me about seing her, of course I got really upset.. and wished that she would burn in hell (overreacting like you do when your 15...no spells though...)
and.. the next day her house burned down, lightning from a clear blue sky... I didnt really think about it at the time...
About a year ago, some friends and i saw a psycic, just for fun, and I remember that she looked at me in a strange way and said that I was strong, so much stronger than I could ever imagine.. and then she kinda freaked out a litle... (and she was right about everything else, about me and my friends...)

So, i guess i am wondering...

Can I have "cursed" myself?

( I guess this really seems like a syupid question...)

[thatguy]

There's no way you've cursed yourself, absolutely no way. To actually call lightning out of a clear sky is dead near impossible even if you're the most adept at weather manipulation on the planet and an obscenely unnaturally powerful freak of nature to boot. Even if you had *wanted* to do it on a *cloudy* day it would have required long sustained concentration (maybe a whole day) executing a precise plan with that exact task in mind along with a great deal of practice in simply perceiving all the subtleties of weather as well as to some knowledge, intuitive or practical of how storms and lightning actually work.

I can from experience utterly assure you that you were not in *any* way responsible for this occurrence and I'm sure many others will back me up on this.

What I can tell you is that you're a compassionate person who learned that her wishes for another to burn in hell was not what she wished at all considering that you obviously feel bad about what happened in reality.

As far as the personal relationships go, I'm so sorry you've had a bad time. Wanting to be loved by someone special is something everyone wants and wants badly, but, you deserve for yourself to be with someone who not only loves you with you loving them but is also the type of person you want to be with.

You're definitely not cursed

best of luck!

[Rabidbunny]

I have a...well, i dont want to call it a problem, but... I hope someone could give me some advise on this... I read something about that what you send out, you get back, and that got me thinking... I got really upset.. and wished that she would burn in hell (overreacting like you do when your 15...no spells though...) and.. the next day her house burned down, lightning from a clear blue sky... I didnt really think about it at the time... So, i guess i am wondering... Can I have "cursed" myself? ( I guess this really seems like a syupid question...)

I don't think it is a stupid question at all. I think thinking about your question brings lots of interesting ideas to mind, and thinking is a very good thing.

I think 'cursing' oneself IS possible to do. I think this way because I know that much of magick works because of 'headology'. Headology means that IF a person thinks that he or she is cursed or hexed, no matter if he or she really has been or not, he or she then IS hexed or cursed.

Why?

First of all, because negatives are attracted to negatives. If you think that you are unlucky you will be. If you think you life will suck, it will. All your own negative emotions about being down and out will only make you more so, because misery loves company... and miserable energy loves miserable energy's company.

Secondly, it's because of perception. If you think bad things are going to happen to you because of a curse, then every time you get a hangnail you will start looking for some dark and spooky reason for it. Your check gets lost in the mail? Must be the hex. Someone dies? Must be the hex. Bad boyfriend cheats on you? Acck, it's because you've been hexed. Can't get a job? Again, the hex.

See what I mean?

I mean, to be honest, I've hinted to people that I've hexed them before, but not really done it, and then just sat back and watched them hex themselves.

HOWEVER, just because it is possible to 'curse' oneself, it doesn't mean that you personally 'cursed' yourself.

I think you have to break your own situation down and look at it closely.

Did YOU cause lighting to hit your rivals house? I kinda doubt it. Sometimes 'Stuff happens". Sometimes lightning hits houses. Sometimes those houses burn down. I don't see a cause and effect between you wishing and lightning hitting.

Is your rotten "luck" with men caused by a curse? I don't think so... instead I think your rotten "luck" isn't luck at all. I think maybe you just don't make the best choices where men are concerned. Please don't think I am judging you for that, because I do the same thing myself. A nice guy with a good job bores me to death, but an unemployed guy wearing tight jeans on a stolen Harley thrills me. I know myself well enough to admit that my taste in men is not good for me, and so, at age 54 I am happily single again. I have discovered that the first step to me having happy relationships is learning to have a happy relationship with myself BEFORE I tackle having relationships with others.

If you want to rid yourself of your 'curse', I'd suggest doing some work on making yourself a happier, healthier person. If it makes you feel better, do some spellwork too to get rid of your negative energies and even to 'break' your own 'curse', since if you believe in your own magick, and you should if you are going to be doing any, then this will help you on the road to having happy relationships.

[Hera#76]

I think 'cursing' oneself IS possible to do. I think this way because I know that much of magick works because of 'headology'.

Have you been reading Terry Pratchett by any chance Rabidbunny?

[Rabidbunny]

Have you been reading Terry Pratchett by any chance Rabidbunny?

Of course.

Doesn't everyone?



I actually have a couple Prachett books on the Reading List that I give to all the apprentice Witches that my family groups takes on. His books go right along side books by authors like Crowley, Hutton, Fortune, Kondratiev, Regarde, Hyatt, Yronwode, Beyerl, McKenna, Sarangerel, Joseph Campbell, Eilers, etc etc etc.

[heidine]

thanks everybody
Im kinda new to all this and even though i have read a lot, i have never found enything on this!
I think i will try a protection spell, it can't hurt
And...I guess I just have to be more careful when i meet guys ( I really had no idea that they were that crazy in the beginning, so its not like im a bad-guy gropie or anything... maybe i should have them take a psyc test before i give them my phonenumber..)

[Nackin]

A lot of people have what they think is bad luck with guys/girls. I think its more likely bad taste in guys/girls. People often have a high enough IQ, but are lacking in EQ, emotional intelligence. The trick is mostly to notice the patterns to what you might be doing wrong. You've noticed, so it will improve.

[Skylights]

Hi, Heidine.

Like the others, I agree: I don't think you caused the fire damage, and I don't think you're cursed. I, personally, believe that whatever energy you send out will come back to you, but I also believe thoughts are quite a far cry from actions. Maybe if you had taken a match to her garbage, I'd consider this a kick in the butt from karma, but since you were just having natural thoughts and not acting on them, no.

The best I can tell you is, like others have said, try and think positively about yourself. Try and see patterns in the people you've dated before. My biggest tip would be to take your time before dating someone. There's no need to jump right in. Try friendship first; you'd be amazed what you can learn about someone when you're not always busy making out with them.

As a veteran of the 'Don't leave me or I'll kill myself/you/someone' situation, I know you feel frustrated, but don't worry. You'll find someone good and sane soon enough.