I seem to have slipped into some odd state of depression that i cant seem to shake off. i just feel soooo lonely, and its really annoying....because im usually very happy go lucky....
has anyone ever felt that no one in the world gave a crap about them? sometimes i feel like i will be alone for the rest of my life. i know that sounds dramatic...but thats how i feel.
i really dont know how to shake it. sorry for rambling....just wanted to get my feelings out somehow.
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
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poetry_princess
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grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
Blessed BE all the Children of Gaia
There Exist only 3 beings in the world worthy of regognition: the priest, the soldier, the poet. To know, to kill, to create.
There Exist only 3 beings in the world worthy of regognition: the priest, the soldier, the poet. To know, to kill, to create.
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GenevieveDawn
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I feel like that everyday. I'm raising 3 kids by myself and nobody even tries to help me. I got to work Sat. for time and a half and nobody would even help babysit. This is including my family and the kids Dad. Nice huh? Everyone knows I stuggle and don't care. I feel all the time that I just can't do this, but I really don't have a choice.
Actually it appears that alot of us hear seem to be depressed or something. So anyway, you're not alone.
Sorry for rambling my problems...
Actually it appears that alot of us hear seem to be depressed or something. So anyway, you're not alone.
Sorry for rambling my problems...
...magic consists of removing the limitations from what we think are the earthly and spiritual laws that bind or compel us. We can be anything because we are ALL. - Mary Greer
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SilverFox*
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Yea, dont worry about rambling about ur problems guys!! It helps to get them out sometimes...thats how I feel anyhow...while I'm in a good mood now..I know how it feels to be utterly depressed....I was for quite a while, and actually wrote in a note to a friend that it was obvious that I was destined to spend my life alone so why not get ready for it now....but I've pulled myself outta that hole for now..little by little....I'm hoping I wont go back in it, but I cant fortell the future and god knows how many hurts there will be waiting for me....unfortunately at 19(in 17 days)I am actually kinda looking at relationships more permanently, but I cant expect every guy I walk up to to be seeing the same...so I'll live it anyway I can I guess.
I hope you guys can have at least those few good days that keep us going, even tho they come and go as they feel.....just dont let urself slip....ppl do care whether you know it yet or not!
I hope you guys can have at least those few good days that keep us going, even tho they come and go as they feel.....just dont let urself slip....ppl do care whether you know it yet or not!
**~**Blessed Be.**~**
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thanks for the kind words. 
it will sound weird when i say it...but i feel guilty when i get depressed...which makes it even worse. because i know that it could be worse, and im not the only one in the world hurting...but i still cant help feeling sorry for myself. it sucks. 
it will sound weird when i say it...but i feel guilty when i get depressed...which makes it even worse. because i know that it could be worse, and im not the only one in the world hurting...but i still cant help feeling sorry for myself. it sucks. Blessed BE all the Children of Gaia
There Exist only 3 beings in the world worthy of regognition: the priest, the soldier, the poet. To know, to kill, to create.
There Exist only 3 beings in the world worthy of regognition: the priest, the soldier, the poet. To know, to kill, to create.
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Abren
Poetryprincess,
Being depressed is nothing to feel guilty about, I agree, it is something that you can't control. But I think sometime you can. It depends on what is really wrong. Maybe you need to take some "you time" and really think about the things going on in your life right now. It may become apparent and it may not, but taking some alone time and thinking about you is always a good thing to do. Meditate, read, drive go lay under a tree in a park.... something. As far as people not caring about you, I am sure tht there is someone that cares, whether you feel it or not. When you are depressed things seem like a lot heavier of a load then what they are. It seems to magnify the negative things and push the goods things away. You need to try to pull those positive things back to you. Okay now that I have rambled I will go. If you need anything at all let me know.
Marie
Being depressed is nothing to feel guilty about, I agree, it is something that you can't control. But I think sometime you can. It depends on what is really wrong. Maybe you need to take some "you time" and really think about the things going on in your life right now. It may become apparent and it may not, but taking some alone time and thinking about you is always a good thing to do. Meditate, read, drive go lay under a tree in a park.... something. As far as people not caring about you, I am sure tht there is someone that cares, whether you feel it or not. When you are depressed things seem like a lot heavier of a load then what they are. It seems to magnify the negative things and push the goods things away. You need to try to pull those positive things back to you. Okay now that I have rambled I will go. If you need anything at all let me know.
Marie
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poetry_princess
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(sigh) I know everything you say is true. im just a dork. its just alot of bad things have been happening (namely with men) and its one thing after another...and it seems overwhelming at the time. im sure i can work through it all, and get rid of all the crap i dont need.
Blessed BE all the Children of Gaia
There Exist only 3 beings in the world worthy of regognition: the priest, the soldier, the poet. To know, to kill, to create.
There Exist only 3 beings in the world worthy of regognition: the priest, the soldier, the poet. To know, to kill, to create.
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SilverFox*
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I know EXACTLY how you feel poetryprincess....I always seem to have fifty different depressing things happening at once....like right now..the guy I like told me he likes me, but then went back out with his ex..then me and one of my friends are getting into a sorta fight..and a few other things happened not long ago..its like I get a day or two where I can be happy, then it all crashes once again....I hate it and theres nothing I can do about it!!
But yes, I know there are other ppl hurting, the same and worse kinds of hurts..it just seems to cloud...lately I've just been feeling completely numb....
But yes, I know there are other ppl hurting, the same and worse kinds of hurts..it just seems to cloud...lately I've just been feeling completely numb....
**~**Blessed Be.**~**
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poetry_princess
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I feel for you PoetryPrincess. Depression sucks, and it's certainly something I dread ever happening again. Feeling guilty about being depressed is very normal. I just read that yesterday in my Borderline Personality Disorder book. And it can be a vicious cycle... you feel bad about feeling bad (because you feel like you should feel happy and fine), so then you feel worse for feeling guilty about feeling depressed, and on and on. That kind of cycle can be dangerous if it gets out of hand. Depression is not your fault. It's a mental illness. I don't personally like anti-depressants, but many people feel like they're a life-saver, so you may want to consider that. I hope you feel better soon. Depression can drag on for years if you don't get treatment for it. Mine lasted at least 2 years in a heavy depression and many years before that in what they call "dysthymia", which is a low-grade depression. Please try to get some help if you feel it's only getting worse, not better. Don't feel guilty or ashamed. It's not your fault, and lots of people go through the same problem some time in their life.
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poetry_princess
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thanks guys. i hope that crap is gone forever too! i know that im not going to make MEN make me feel like crap anymore or use me anymore. no man is worth sacrificig the self-love all women should feel.
Blessed BE all the Children of Gaia
There Exist only 3 beings in the world worthy of regognition: the priest, the soldier, the poet. To know, to kill, to create.
There Exist only 3 beings in the world worthy of regognition: the priest, the soldier, the poet. To know, to kill, to create.
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