Before You Leap

[lildeamonpixi]

I stand alone
my path once so carefully planed
years of toiling down the drain
friends i have known and been so close to
now seem far and distant
My new envelopment unrecognizable
so different from the nest that I was once raised
new habits and attitudes arise in me
who is this person
biting at the hand that feeds
reviving old flames
a strength I thought had gone
never having been forced to choose
between safety and excitement
of finally learning to fly
am i trapeze artist with no net
will my wings work after all this time
kept locked away
hidden under a shadow
now free on my own
but freedom proved to much
my wings to weak
i was knocked out of the sky
with no one to catch me when i fall
the nest no longer wished to let me in
i was the outsider looking back at the past
never knowing what i was leaving behind
for cheep thrills and a second chance
good bye comfort zone
hello new life


okay so this was about my leaving the community i grew up in I was raised in a Private school setting I have gone to the same school my whole life and all the girls from my grade school went to the high school and he boys to the other local private school well after my sophomore year i decided i was too good for them they never accepted that i was different so i was leaving good ridden's i started at public school in the fall and it was so different violent and full of new challenges in the end it all proved to much and i was driven from the school and attempted to return to my old school they would not take me back i had caused to much damage at my new school so I was forced into home schooling i do miss my old life but i got back alot of my confience in the process of no longer being around the people who put me down growing up and it wasn't until i left that i realized what a huge mistake it was now coming into my senior year i realize that i will not be graduating with my best friend. think before you leap

thanks for reading
lots of love