Well maybe this is a place where i can find some help with this nightmare.I have had this nightmare since i was a lil girl. The character is the same in every dream just the circumstances are different. I call this nightmare a reaccuring character dream.Simply because its the character that has remained with me all these years. The character is male that is just what i get. you cant see him only feel his presence and the presense to me is pure evil. so later on i had named this character evil it. In my dreams "he" had done horrible things to me.
When i was little it was throwing me around the walls in my room or a room, taking the covers off of me, holding me down and so on. As I got older I had taught myself to wake myself up soon as I felt "him" by screaming in my dream and at first I am screaming in my dream but also aware of my normal state I cant move for a bit at first but finally i end up awake screaming what ever it is i scream in my dream to wake myself up.
Also as I got older it got to where the dreams were like I was awake. Example: My husband always rubs my head before I go to sleep to help me relaxe since I have such a hard time sleeping. When he would get tired or start to fall asleep himself his fingers would stop for a secound then he would wake back up and start again. One night he was doing just that rubing my head. I felt his hand stop , now i really think I am still awake, next thing i know it was "his" evil its thumb and he laughed and i realized I was sleeping and screamed myself awake. That scared me to pieces. The feel of evil it alone is terrifying but then to feel like i am awake and it happens. I realize I am not but not at first.
There were times were i might go six months or possibly even a year and not have evil it dreams. But here recently well past 7 months or so I have been having the evil it dream quiet regularly a couple times a week even at times. I started taking notes and my husband started paying attention as well. I always have these dreams within the first half hour of me asleep if not sooner. Here latley also where i could usually scream myself awake and wouldnt dream like that no more , herelatley i will fall right back into the sleep and he is there. I am at my wits end on this.
I use to try to use logic, as in, the evil it dreams usually happend or so i thought at a bad time in my life and it was my subcocjous way of dealin with it. but ok enough is enough. I just want it to stop. Any ideas? I am probably just crazy but my doc also knows about this reaccuring character dream and well he tried to give me medicine to help with it and it never did so i quit taking it. This one terrifies me. It does get to where I really dont want to go to sleep sometimes.Now thankfully last couple weeks I havent had an evil it dream...but i know its coming. I will do everything to think positive wont even have the dream on my mind and ill still have it. So what do you think it means? can someone help ? sorry so long .
Blessed Be
Tabatha
reaccuring character dream plz help
well whatever this "it" seems to be, i think its mostly something thats connected to your subconcious and the real world. so with that, i think we can rule out any sort of outside party like a demon for example, or some evil entity. what gave it away was the incident with your husband and him rubbing your head.
the things that this "it" would do to you as a kid almost seem like things an older sibling would do to tease you. i find pulling the covers off and holding you down very "big brother" like. this may be completely off but any relation there?
what i also just thought off is that this "it" may just be some form of energy that you let out when things are getting to you. like when you were a kid there really were no things we worry about in general, but things like being held down and the covers being taken off of us are big deals to us as children...but as an adult we worry about things in reality,in things in other words, matter...hence the dreams you're having now seem so real. this could all be stress and we may not see it.
do you sleep with radio or tv on? if you do maybe start sleeping with it off and just sleep in silence.you may not know it but even when we're trying to sleep the radio and tv keeps our brains thinking therefore not letting ourselves get that really good and deep sleep. try meditating (and sleeping) with a fan or AC on...the noise is pure nothing and so you'll fall asleep to nothing.
i hope at least some of what ive said helps. good luck.
the things that this "it" would do to you as a kid almost seem like things an older sibling would do to tease you. i find pulling the covers off and holding you down very "big brother" like. this may be completely off but any relation there?
what i also just thought off is that this "it" may just be some form of energy that you let out when things are getting to you. like when you were a kid there really were no things we worry about in general, but things like being held down and the covers being taken off of us are big deals to us as children...but as an adult we worry about things in reality,in things in other words, matter...hence the dreams you're having now seem so real. this could all be stress and we may not see it.
do you sleep with radio or tv on? if you do maybe start sleeping with it off and just sleep in silence.you may not know it but even when we're trying to sleep the radio and tv keeps our brains thinking therefore not letting ourselves get that really good and deep sleep. try meditating (and sleeping) with a fan or AC on...the noise is pure nothing and so you'll fall asleep to nothing.
i hope at least some of what ive said helps. good luck.
love always,
emmi
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well thank you for taking the time to read this.. I have thought through out the years about the possiblities of why i could be having these 'it" dreams... i never really imagined "it" as a demon but "it" is bad.
I am the oldest and i came from a very hard childhood.. my dreams as a child of "it" could have very well been because of the abuse i went through.. and even far as abuse goes it went well into my adult years. till i was 34. Then i broke the cycle of abuse and it stoped, but not the dream.
thats why i said i tried to think that maybe it was my subconcious dealin with the bad things in my life. But now my life is for the most part good. I have stress issues but who dont? meaning everyday stresss things. kids husband life in general. But nothing to overwhelming. Now I have in the past year lost two extremely important people in my life. My grandfather who was like a dad to me. I lost him year ago june 6th and he was the first person ever i lost to me that i was close to. then my best male friend and brother inalw i lost jan 7 so bascially six months after loosin my grandfather. I thought maybe that in itself might be why the "it" dream has come back with a vengence.
Weird to me.. my most recent scariest one i had was i was like when you see on tv how people hang themselfs theier body violently shakes and all right before they die. My brother inlaw hung himself.. the "it" dream was like that movement but i wasnt hanging but it was all that movement from what you see on tv.. i felt it all like my body shaking voilently not being able to breath and just everything and i felt "it" i screamed myself awake as usual.. i cried.. i thought of jimmy my brother in law. was that how he felt when it happened? then i thought why would "it" do that to me. then i thought was it my mind my subconcious..but then why?
I know this seems so out there but its how it happens. I dont sleep with the tv on for i have enough sleep issues i dont sleep alot sometimes.. so i try not to have anything distractin me when i sleep. I dont know what to believe or think i just want it to stop...im 41 now i think its time that it goes away.
thank you again for responding
Blessed Be
I am the oldest and i came from a very hard childhood.. my dreams as a child of "it" could have very well been because of the abuse i went through.. and even far as abuse goes it went well into my adult years. till i was 34. Then i broke the cycle of abuse and it stoped, but not the dream.
thats why i said i tried to think that maybe it was my subconcious dealin with the bad things in my life. But now my life is for the most part good. I have stress issues but who dont? meaning everyday stresss things. kids husband life in general. But nothing to overwhelming. Now I have in the past year lost two extremely important people in my life. My grandfather who was like a dad to me. I lost him year ago june 6th and he was the first person ever i lost to me that i was close to. then my best male friend and brother inalw i lost jan 7 so bascially six months after loosin my grandfather. I thought maybe that in itself might be why the "it" dream has come back with a vengence.
Weird to me.. my most recent scariest one i had was i was like when you see on tv how people hang themselfs theier body violently shakes and all right before they die. My brother inlaw hung himself.. the "it" dream was like that movement but i wasnt hanging but it was all that movement from what you see on tv.. i felt it all like my body shaking voilently not being able to breath and just everything and i felt "it" i screamed myself awake as usual.. i cried.. i thought of jimmy my brother in law. was that how he felt when it happened? then i thought why would "it" do that to me. then i thought was it my mind my subconcious..but then why?
I know this seems so out there but its how it happens. I dont sleep with the tv on for i have enough sleep issues i dont sleep alot sometimes.. so i try not to have anything distractin me when i sleep. I dont know what to believe or think i just want it to stop...im 41 now i think its time that it goes away.
thank you again for responding
Blessed Be
i'm sorry about all the things you've been through. no one should ever have to suffer. this is very interesting, i've never heard of dreams like these before which makes me want to help even more.
maybe the dream about your brother in law was how his death really occurred. i didn't know that that was what the human body does when people hang themselves. my best friend hung himself about 5 years ago and i've always wondered how his death was. this "it" could very well be your subconscious, but what i don't understand, along with you, is why in such a way where it affects you so strongly? this is interesting i'm going to keep on researching for you. i want to help you...and also satisfy my curiosity!
and you're welcome. its always my pleasure to try and help as much as possible.
maybe the dream about your brother in law was how his death really occurred. i didn't know that that was what the human body does when people hang themselves. my best friend hung himself about 5 years ago and i've always wondered how his death was. this "it" could very well be your subconscious, but what i don't understand, along with you, is why in such a way where it affects you so strongly? this is interesting i'm going to keep on researching for you. i want to help you...and also satisfy my curiosity!
and you're welcome. its always my pleasure to try and help as much as possible.
love always,
emmi
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your very kind and thank you so very much..im also sorry for your loss. loosing a best friend like that is very tradgic so i can very much so sympathsize with your feelings on the matter..I also didnt mean to upset you in anyway by sayin how i have seen people hang on tv. just was my easiest way to explain the dream and "it" being there to. i hope you can uncover something that can help or at least help me to understand what might be goin on with me
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Hi Tabitha,
I think you hit the nail on the head when you correlated these bad dreams to a traumatic event/'bad childhood', as you put it. That is exactly what I think it is coming from.
Our dreams are our subconscious' way of alerting us to something it perceives as a threat and that it feels must be dealt with. Even one small occurrence as a child that we perceive to be abusive (whether it is or not), is more than enough to cause permanent damage and drastically harm our view of the world.
Further, you said your dreams are either triggered by negative occurrence (by the way, I'm sorry to hear of your loss, both you and Emmi- that must have been terribly painful...) or your dreams are coming to the surface more fervently now because you subconsciously know that you have the support and a safe environment to begin dealing with them. (you seem very secure with your husband).
Either way though, no matter how much we think we have a handle on things that happened in our past, it's very common to be completely wrong. I've thought I had a handle on my issues and stresses, but no-- now my hair is falling out in huge amounts. My emotional strain has manifested physically. --So really, this is common. I just hope you still have your hair.
What you need is a good psychotherapist, someone who maybe deals with hypnosis or regression therapy, in fact-- because there is something there that you have been dreaming about for many years- some "thing" is taking away the pleasure from your life and is continually exercising his control over you. Now that you have a safe and accepting environment to work this through, and a husband who will clearly support you through the process, you need to begin by first identifying "it" and then beginning your healing process. It's never too late-- and definitely don't accept this as "just the way it is" for you... it's so not.
Bright Blessings to you, and I wish you only the best throughout this journey~
~MoonStone
I think you hit the nail on the head when you correlated these bad dreams to a traumatic event/'bad childhood', as you put it. That is exactly what I think it is coming from.
Our dreams are our subconscious' way of alerting us to something it perceives as a threat and that it feels must be dealt with. Even one small occurrence as a child that we perceive to be abusive (whether it is or not), is more than enough to cause permanent damage and drastically harm our view of the world.
Further, you said your dreams are either triggered by negative occurrence (by the way, I'm sorry to hear of your loss, both you and Emmi- that must have been terribly painful...) or your dreams are coming to the surface more fervently now because you subconsciously know that you have the support and a safe environment to begin dealing with them. (you seem very secure with your husband).
Either way though, no matter how much we think we have a handle on things that happened in our past, it's very common to be completely wrong. I've thought I had a handle on my issues and stresses, but no-- now my hair is falling out in huge amounts. My emotional strain has manifested physically. --So really, this is common. I just hope you still have your hair.
What you need is a good psychotherapist, someone who maybe deals with hypnosis or regression therapy, in fact-- because there is something there that you have been dreaming about for many years- some "thing" is taking away the pleasure from your life and is continually exercising his control over you. Now that you have a safe and accepting environment to work this through, and a husband who will clearly support you through the process, you need to begin by first identifying "it" and then beginning your healing process. It's never too late-- and definitely don't accept this as "just the way it is" for you... it's so not.
Bright Blessings to you, and I wish you only the best throughout this journey~
~MoonStone
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Thank you so much for your input and advise... I had been seeing a therpist for a lil while but didnt go as far as regression work or hypnosis..with what i do remmeber now i think i would be afraid if there was anything worse that i am holding back.
you are right there are certain things i am sure i need to deal with but i also thought i had for the most part...i guess because i have gotten older i just figure its gonna go away... and most the bad parts had but at same time i have had a very hard year so i can see the logical side and think that maybe "it" has been here because its been so hard with loosing both my grandfather and my best friend... you made alot of sense to me..i will definatley consider going back in. the reason i stoped is because i didnt want to relive certain things.. i had put the certain things behind me and instead of feeling better when i got out i felt worse...i didnt see how that was helping me... but maybe i will try again.. especially and if for anything else to deal with the deaths i have encountered lately..
thank you so much
Blessed Be
you are right there are certain things i am sure i need to deal with but i also thought i had for the most part...i guess because i have gotten older i just figure its gonna go away... and most the bad parts had but at same time i have had a very hard year so i can see the logical side and think that maybe "it" has been here because its been so hard with loosing both my grandfather and my best friend... you made alot of sense to me..i will definatley consider going back in. the reason i stoped is because i didnt want to relive certain things.. i had put the certain things behind me and instead of feeling better when i got out i felt worse...i didnt see how that was helping me... but maybe i will try again.. especially and if for anything else to deal with the deaths i have encountered lately..
thank you so much
Blessed Be
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