My Jouney To Krishna (God) Conciousness

[Earth Ritual]

Just to add, by practicing celebicy my compassion for the female has been increasing steadily. I now realize how much more suffering they must go through then a male, and I also see that I thought of them almost the way I would think of an animal before I began this journey.

I can also see that, much like some men, there are many women equally consumed with sex in their lives. It becomes toxic almost. More and more of these women are also being drawn twards myself right now. As if an evil is working through themselves to tempt me. Sounds far-fetched to some, but it feels very real to me. But again, I must only stop dwelling on their sex nature and remember god, and I'm freed from this temptation. I never thought I'd get this far honestly, and only a short time ago was cursing god for my not being able to surrender and let go of sex. Oh, how fullish that was by the way.


I hope this gives someone hope.
Much love,
Y0m

Wow Y0m this is profound. I stand that this is one of the most beautiful paths humans can walk.

In one of the mystery schools I belong to one of the guides suggest that that cause of all wars and violence is male sexual frustration. When this energy flows naturally it activates the heart chakra and beyond. The issue is that most men have no idea how to have sex or masturbate properly. Yes, as ludicrous suggested there is a right way and a wrong way to do it. Of course this is just one path.

I am so happy to hear that this is working for you. I have some interesting parallels and conclusions though mine came from being gay.

I find that females try to temp me because they don't want me to be gay like some force (demonic via the psychic channels of early childhood, religious and media-social imprints) is working through them on a crusade to keep the true birthright and promise of those that are fully human and free from manifesting on a global and cosmic scale.

Through this path there has been pain and I realized through this pain my connection to all the females in my lineage and the type of pain they endure just to keep the family alive. Astounding really.

[Xal]

I find that females try to temp me because they don't want me to be gay like some force (demonic via the psychic channels of early childhood, religious and media-social imprints) is working through them on a crusade to keep the true birthright and promise of those that are fully human and free from manifesting on a global and cosmic scale.

North Carolina must be a strange place.

[Earth Ritual]

I find that females try to temp me because they don't want me to be gay like some force (demonic via the psychic channels of early childhood, religious and media-social imprints) is working through them on a crusade to keep the true birthright and promise of those that are fully human and free from manifesting on a global and cosmic scale.

North Carolina must be a strange place.

LOL It's just me and a couple of other souls who've activated their Strange Attractor.

[Y0m]

Earth ritual, interesting. Do you think you could describe the "Strange Atractor" to me more and how one would activate this?


I'm reporting here to give yet another update. Last night I was studying the Srimad Bhagavatam and realized that I had some inner issues stoping me from loving and devoting myself to the lord in full out of fear and doubt. Before I slept I did some soul searching and realized that this stemed from a time when I stumbled upon some troubling information about the creation of the material world, and also concerning the order of this world and it's dimensions. Because I have a very strong power of decernment of the truth (which we all have this abality to some degree), I was able to see the truth in what I found and it worried me very greatly - planting the seeds of doubt and fear within me.

I won't go into this information here, because it would take a long time & is not really condusive to anyone's growth, but I'm considering letting it be known in another post.

Anyway I prayed to the lord very hard last night asking for some clarification. And I instently got a very clear message in my head... an explanation so to say. I was so happy! It released me from my bondage and now I am able to devote myself fully.

That is all for now.
Much love,
Y0m

[Earth Ritual]

Here is were I first learned about th strange attractor:

http://www.chanceandchoice.com/chapter2.html

Since enountering this information I've studied with a couple of Shamans who had me do certain rituals to help me to remember who am I as a possibility, not as a fixed set of predictable outcomes.

What is possible for me is that I can be something and someone unprecedented in the way many of my Ancestors like Harriot, David Walker, Noble Prophet Drew Ali, Nat Turner, Malcome X were all unprecedented. Nothing is ever bound to repeat itself again.

This is what works for me.

I think that if anyone invites God into their lives they will organize themselves at the level of who they said they were while they were completely in spirit.

P.S.

I am very curious about the information you are talking about. Sometimes when I have deliver some information like when Morpheus delivers to Neo I'll create a context that affirms the Beauty and Truth of God. This way there is a decent into a lowerworld and there is a guiding Light the whole way.

[blackwavy]

I can also feel a burning sensation in my chest... which is like a warm burning, and it feels great. And my third eye is very much more active.
Much love,
Y0m

Yes, you've awakened your kundalini- the serpent- the life force within! It will take more time for the energy to pierce the upper chakras. The burning is the 'cleansing'. It clears and opens each chakra as it goes up. Kundalini governs you, she takes care of you. As you go along, you will uncover things about you that were dormant. You begin to find truth in everything--also, you feel connected to everything. I've already had those symptoms and have reached the crown (last few months of '09).

Keep reciting the mantras.
There are of course other ways towards completion.
You are on the right track.
Keep a quiet mind.
I would love to hear your progression.

[blackwavy]

I think that if anyone invites God into their lives they will organize themselves at the level of who they said they were while they were completely in spirit.
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Loving God as the Creator, over religion an any egoistic belief system or philosophies is the most grand.

Loving in spirit. Loving that you are a part of the Creator. Our journey on this planet is to let Creator's essence shine through us. Living as God the best way we can: Our Higher Selves...

[Y0m]

I would love to hear your progression.

Well for the interest of those interested Ha... here you are:

I'm finding that by chanting and helping those around me selflessly expecting nothing, my karma has increased dramaticly. I live a life full of everything a person would need or want and I don't have to work very much or at all every day. I'm not trying to be cocky either...

But this makes it even easier to give into temptations. I'm finding that my path of becoming a monk will prove to be my greatest challenge, but I must do it. People and events are being placed into my life to test me more and more and sometimes I fail, but I realized that as long as I don't give up things will be alright in the end.

This journey is well worth it. And it's showing me just how powerful your intentions are. I hope everyone will find love and happyness one day, and I really mean it. I also wish to work in devotion to the lord in my every thought and action.

Life is a test of sorts.
Much love and luck,
Y0m

[blackwavy]

I always sex was sacred. I understand that people are so fascinating with the act that they allow it to take over themselves. Sex is creation. Creation involves both feminine and masculine energies. The thing is that people are so stuck in their animalistic nature, it keeps them from growing spiritually. Its low-level energy but is still important in sustaining life here on Earth. Spirits needed to inhabit a body to purify themselves through learned lessons and knowledge.

[Y0m]

Definitely... through sex one can overcome duality. Male and female are one.

Love