my most scariest dream yet
Posted: Sun Aug 30, 2009 9:57 am
if you can't tell from my numerous posts on this section, i dream a lot. and last night i had what i think is the scariest dream yet. my dream didn't consist of demons or monsters or spirits or anything like that. it was what happened after i woke up that was scary.
ok so i wasn't supposed to be born. like my parents were not ready at all to become parents 18 years ago. my mother became a mother pretty quickly and adjusted to her new lifestyle as well as expected. my father on the other hand did not...and he let me know about it. my father hit me as a kid and when my sister was born when i was 7 he took that second chance to be a "dad" and ran with it. so basically there's a lot of resentment towards my father. anyways...last night i had a dream that took place back when i was little and my father was hitting me. now, ive had these kind of dreams before and i've just woken up and just shook them off like it was nothing. but this morning as i was taking a shower i noticed something on my arm. it was a red mark shaped like a hand that had grabbed me. this happened in my dream and i felt the pain in my dream but i didn't feel it when i woke up. i just noticed the hand print in the shower. it;s still there and i think its starting to bruise up a little but like seriously......when i was in the shower i was shocked. i've never had this happen to me before. my father is right handed so i put MY right hand up against the mark and its around the same size maybe a bit bigger. did i do this to myself while i was dreaming? it's the only reasonable answer...right?
ok so i wasn't supposed to be born. like my parents were not ready at all to become parents 18 years ago. my mother became a mother pretty quickly and adjusted to her new lifestyle as well as expected. my father on the other hand did not...and he let me know about it. my father hit me as a kid and when my sister was born when i was 7 he took that second chance to be a "dad" and ran with it. so basically there's a lot of resentment towards my father. anyways...last night i had a dream that took place back when i was little and my father was hitting me. now, ive had these kind of dreams before and i've just woken up and just shook them off like it was nothing. but this morning as i was taking a shower i noticed something on my arm. it was a red mark shaped like a hand that had grabbed me. this happened in my dream and i felt the pain in my dream but i didn't feel it when i woke up. i just noticed the hand print in the shower. it;s still there and i think its starting to bruise up a little but like seriously......when i was in the shower i was shocked. i've never had this happen to me before. my father is right handed so i put MY right hand up against the mark and its around the same size maybe a bit bigger. did i do this to myself while i was dreaming? it's the only reasonable answer...right?
