Everything Under the Moon

So happy to have found this Forum page.... boy am I in need of Positive and Protective energy

TO being with, my name is Catherine, and I've been practicing casting mainly using candles, and oils, stones and incense for a few years. I believe in the power of thought and visualizing. I'm pretty much self-taught, and so IM ALWAYS wanting to Learn more (and become a better,happier person all-around)

--> One of my Main Issues is that I ALWAYS feel Open to "bad energy" When someone has Negative thoughts towards me or gives me the "evil-eyes" :goblin: something Bad WILL happen to me. From being physically hurt, to having an unpleasant event happen that day.

Currently I have a huge, horrid problem and no-where to turn to for help and advice.
Years ago there were some school legal documents which needed completion, but do to personal issues with health, emotion and school bureaucracy they were not completed correctly.
For the past year I have been diligently working to right these problems, get ahead and continue to be productive.
Everything was turning out great... until Last Week.
It seems these issues and problems from my past ( 2 years filled with strife, difficulties and trouble) just WONT go away.
No matter how much effort I put in, I cannot get ahead (or away) from my past struggles.

Is there anything that you can suggest? Any spell, chant or invocation that I could use?
I am trying to tackle these issues head-on and be Strong, but it seems then just keep pulling me down ::darkmood::
I know I will never be able to have a happy productive future if I am constantly weighted down by issues from the past.
I want to be RID of them once-and-for-all, not just have then hiding in the dark ready to strike again.

All and any recommendations are highly appreciated.

Thank you so much for your kindness and help
Much love and gratitude MoonlightDreams

Hmmm...I am not sure about a general "remove the past" kind of invocation, Moonlight...It is very hard to discern what are useful lessons and what are things that will keep you "constantly weighted down." I do know that one constant truth is that there is nothing constant--thus, you will not be weighed down like this forever and ever! That is about all the advice I can give without the specifics of your situation. If you want to discuss it further feel free to private message me and we'll see if we can come with up some effective solutions...
Cheers!
bsp

I will give you some info/advice, but remember, this is based on what works for me. So take it as a suggestion, but not an absolute that it will work for you.

I've been on antidepressant meds and in therapy, but the one thing that has really helped me is massage and reiki. Thankfully a pagan friend of mine practices both. I thought it was kind of funny, I had an appointment with my friend on a Friday, and the day before that I was seeing my psychologist, and she suggested it. Part of what my therapist's understanding for massage helping comes from the book The Body Remembers which I have yet to read but as I understand it they suggest that past traumatic experiences are actually remembered in the body. This can be manifested as a sore shoulder/neck or even as something like IBS. Massage helps to release the muscles, and sometimes people even cry when receiving massage because those memories are being released. Then reiki can go deeper than the muscles. If you've never experienced the healing energy if reiki, I highly suggest it, especially right now while you are stressed. For me I particularly like a half hour relaxation massage then half an hour of reiki, that way my mind and body are relaxed and open and available for the healing. After that a meditative state can do wonders, and may come much easier than ordinary.

Even though I see a friend for this, it is still how he makes money. Unfortunately I cannot afford to visit him weekly that way. But daily I do practice meditation and grounding. I work with people every day who are not so nice. I am also very susceptible to others' energies, positive or negative. And daily meditation and grounding is my life saver. It is a chance to let go of all the bad, negative, dark stuff, let it go to the Earth for cleansing, and take in all the good, positive, and light.

I hope this might be of help to you.