Everything Under the Moon

I used to lucid dream and practice it a long time, then I spent a very long time having no dreams at all. Some times I get premonitions or warnings in my dreams, sometimes I'm aware it's a warning but don't know how to interpret it until it sadly happens. Or sometimes I just don't wanna listen cuz I get freaked out or simply think is just my imagination.

Anyways lately I've had nightmares, I'm going through a lot of pressure and problems lately which I think gets reflected when I go to sleep. But they're just nightmares, and at most they make me wake up exhausted or startled.

A few days back though I had a dream which really freaked me out. And last night I had an even worse and creepy one. The first one still could be a vivid nightmare, but the latter really felt like something else. But I don't know how to give a meaning to neither, if they actually happen to have one.

The first one I had I don't remember all the details since it's not so fresh in my memory anymore, but basically I dreamt I lived in an apartment with the man who is presently my boyfriend. In real life he's a very nice person to be around with, but although he already turn 30 sometimes he has childish impulses and acts as such. Like it's a rainy day and I'm out but I got a craving for chocolate so I spend my bus money in a chocolate and then walk two entire hours under the rain to get home. So in that way sometimes he doesn't think. In my dream me both lived an apartment together and weird as it sounds we had a black bull as pet. (in real life I've told him I wanna have a cow, but of course not inside an apartment! I currently live in the country and hope to always do) anyways, all of a sudden he wasn't in the apartment. He must of gone out for some reason, he didn't need to go out, but yet he still did. (sometimes in real life he does so because he wants a cookie or an ice cream or just feels bored and wants to take a walk.) anyways it was late and he wasn't home, in the news then it said there was this riot downtown (something that has occurred regularly in my country and many innocent people have died) so I was really worried, until finally I got a call from my mom she said my name she was really hurt and said "your husband is dead". That was really tough. She saw a video on YouTube (which happens in real life here) of the place where the riot took place and he was accidentally caught up there, this guy threatened to hurt someone and my boyfriend (which in my dream appears to be my husband) try to defend him and got shot. Thing is my mother assured me he was dead because of the video but his body hadn't been found yet. So in the dream I was all heartbroken but at the same time I hoped so bad he was taken to a hospital and was still alive. At the end I his mother came to my apartment and she was really sad but she was holding her tears back as much as she could and she was trying to keep my spirits up and even tried to smile. And we were talking how childish he was and how he could of avoided going out for no real reason. Also the bull had a really sad look. I don't know if it's related but my boyfriend in real life in his Chinese horoscope he's a bull.

And that's basically it for that dream.

The dream I had last night is of different nature but it really creeped me out.

In real life I have this doll, it was given to me by my grandfather when I was five or six (now I'm 25 going on 26 and he already passed away when I was 9). It's a very beautiful doll, it was always my favorite doll and I've kept it intact. I no longer play with it so I just keep her nicely dressed and such. In my dream I dreamt with ghosts, mean evil ghosts. And they were living inside this doll, and also inside other dolls/stuffed animals and they were torturing me and trying to posses me. It went like that for a time until eventually on of the ghosts was actually able to posses me and sometimes I had no control of myself. So far this felt like a nightmare but then this old lady appeared, then it stopped to look like it wasn't a regular nightmare anymore but something else. She spoke to me, and I don't remember the beginning of her words but she told me I should be prepared because in my life I'll get possessed by ghosts twice. And then She left and I woke up.

Do these dreams mean anything? Or are they just nightmares and I should just forget about them? What should I do? I'm scared

First of all i understand the feeling of the old lady nightmare i have one with an old man from my childhood and it was really strange. Second thing and the important one, you can see them as you wish, i believe they do mean something i think that the first nightmare tries to tell you that you dont want to loose you boyfriend underno circuntance that you are to atached to him, the bull could be related to your boyfriend chinise sign or it could be that the feeling for him and without him would be strong enough to move your world.
About the second nightmare and this is just my interpretation, you dont want to see the things you loved in your childhood get changed or altered in any way, plus the possession could be you are afraid to loose control of your life and your actions. Try to remember if you ever saw that old lady before,(in my dream it was an old man i met when i was 5 in a forest).

But remember you give power to your dreams if you dont want them to mean anything then dont let them have that power. you forge your own path.

Hope it help, if you need anything you can just PM me

Thank you so much, it does make a lot of sense what toy said. I'm much more relieved now

I am glad I could be of assistance.