Everything Under the Moon

Hello, everyone! It has been a bit! Things have been a little chaotic, but I came back here today because I had a dream an hour ago that shook me to my core. I'm trying to decipher what the heck it means!
A bit of what's going on in my life currently that may help analyze what I just dreamt:
3 years ago I struggled with extreme depression that has been lifted finally this year! I'm slowly losing weight naturally by feeling better as the weight put on was all from depression. I lost a good 40 lbs over this year.
We got approved to move into a new home, me and my boyfriend of 5 years. This will be the first place on our own with no help from family. We move in 2 weeks, and sign the lease TOMORROW.
I am Wiccan, heavy goddess centered. Every now and then I don't practice as much as I like to, and lately I've been feeling like I fell off the wagon, but I know once we move it will be in full swing.

Now, here's the dream. I remember a lot of detail.

It was dark, and only the light was from the moon which was waning and on coming traffic. I love on a very busy street/highway so a lot of cars are normal.

We have this outside cat, who is not mine, but I have been taking care of her for the past year, as her owners, who live with me, have lost interest. I feed her, give her shelter when it rains, and spend time with her as she also loves my cat. Her name is KitKat. (I'll include a photo of her).

In my dream, I had found Kit Kat, laying in the road. Her left back leg had been ripped off. She laid there, calm, purring, slowly blinking at me. Upon seeing her, I began screaming and crying. I frantically tried directing the traffic, so no more cars would hit her, but they refused to listen, and one by one, I watched her get run over. Still, she remained calm and kept her head up. I was able to scoop up up. I left her leg, as I knew she was dying and to go back for it was pointless. I was wailing, very distraught. I held her close to me and squeezed, crying. I opened my arms and my eyes to look at her, but she was gone. I took this as she had finally passed.

I stood there in my driveway for what seemed like hours, staring at my empty arms, crying. The sun began to rise. I noticed I had been walking into my backyard this entire time, even though it had seemed like I was still. I only realized this once the sun had started to come up. As I was walking, I kept feeling like KitKat was nearby, though she was dead. I could see her running, intact, around the backyard. No one could see her but me. She followed me to an almost empty caravan. In the caravan were cat toys (she never had any) and some paper and water color paint. I am an artist, and watercolor is my second medium. I began painting her a sky. i painted a waxing moon, then sun, and every color of the sky, from early morning to solid black night. As I was lost in this painting, I did not hear my boyfriend (which is odd as I can always here him coming as he wears his keys on his pant belt hoop everywhere) he didn't seem like himself. Almost as if it was something or someone else using his body as a vessel.

I began crying again, looking at the cat toys. "We have to burn them all, so she can have them," I said. My boyfriend looked over everything and calmly said, in a voice that was not his own, "Becca no. These objects are worldly. She doesn't need them anymore where she is." He picked up the painting that I had finished. He pulled out his gold Zippo lighter and began burning it. As it was burning, very oddly and slowly, in a solid yellow flame, he said, "except this. She will truly love this sky" as the last ember blew off into the wind, I awoke.


If anyone could perhaps give me some sort of insight, as my feelings are so mixed, I would appreciate it. I couldn't even tell you how I feel currently. It's just confusion, and a strange sadness. I also would like to check on the cat! Thank you for your time!

-Becca

Hi there Lainara! Long time no see, glad you stepped in.

Yea, that dream is pretty intense, even brought tears to my eyes.
My thoughts are...you may be feeling a little overwhelmed right now..moving is a huge thing, and letting go of one place to embrace another is like a death. I was a little unclear if the cat is purely dreamtime or also exists in your waking. If is is a real cat, then you may be stressing not being able to bring it with you? The painting being burned is not making sense at this moment, but the color yellow has to do with thoughts and memories, gut feelings and creative potential. An excesses of yellow is lack of courage or bravery. But fire is burning through fear to realize the fertile ground.
How are you feeling now? And how is the cat?
blessings, Firebird

Sometimes dreams of death indicate change, rather than actual death. It could be that KitKat is letting you know that she will always be with you, no matter what happens. Fire can also symbolize cleansing.

Snow

Kit Kat is real! I've been a little angry lately, that her owners (My Sister in law of sorts) got her on a whim while her son was very young and not much of a hassle...until her son turned 2 and she threw her outside to fend for herself. I've been feeding her everyday, and spending time with her. Even giving her shelter from the rain. We're moving because the place we are currently living, does not allow animals inside, so we're moving to a place that allows them. My animals are my everything. Kit Kat grew on me these past few months. I was there for her when she had gotten spayed (after I had a few not nice words with her owners to take her finally) because she couldn't be outside alone, drugged, with stitches.
I've grown to love her. I decided to ask my sister in law if I could take her with to our new house the week before we move, and I'm frightened she will say no...But a part of me knows I'll probably take her anyway. It's not like she will miss her.

I'm an artist also! I'm a tattoo apprentice currently and my main medium (besides ink and needle) is water color. I thought maybe the painting could refer to my waking coping skill, which is art. I used painting as a way to get through my depression a year ago. Saved my life.

I saw her today, and she was great! Lil bugger hung out in my car during the CRAZY downpour we had. She got into the cat food I just bought. I'm very relieved to find her happy and healthy and being a naughty kitty. I feel like I need to do some reflecting, and meditation as I'm still unsure how to feel. I decided to forgo some social event tonight as I felt a little too tired. I bought a candle that I had used 2 years ago when I first had contact with the Goddess. (Same scent) and it's bringing intense comfort right now.
There was one thing also to note: My boyfriend, who was talking to me, I didn't really feel like it was him. I felt as if it was someone or something else, that I had never met before, that was using his familiar face as a vessel to speak with me. When he arrived, I vividly remember hearing music, like the meditation music I use sometimes. It was kind of otherwordly. Nothing I had ever heard before, but familiar at the same time.

Thank you for helping me! I truly appreciate it! If you can see anything else I'd love to hear!

Such a pretty kitty! I hope there will be no hiccups bringing her with you when you move.

Agreed! She is so very cute and sweet. I think she will like it on the 72+ acre farm house we're moving to. Lots of room to run and lots of mice to catch!

I have a house full of rescue cats. KitKat has obviously decided that you belong to her. Take her with you. She's been virtually abandoned.

Snow

I will. I was on the fence...but now I'm certain. I almost feel it will be bad luck if I don't! She was meant to be a part of my life, so she will stay.

Cutie pie kitkat!
I'm really glad you will be bringing her with you
You know Lainara, I wonder about that same scinerio in dreaming, ...the
a. someone else in a recognizable body,
OR the reverse, you recognize them to be
b. someone you know but they are in a different body.
I have had the latter type more frequently but I often wondered what that was all about. Makes me think of body snatchers, I'd be Curious to know how many other folks do this person transference thing...and what is it trying to tell us or what symbolic message does this represent ?
bb, Firebird

I'm wondering if perhaps it was the divine?
The god/goddess chose to come to me in a form I love, recognize and trust to deliver the message.
I'm truly starting to feel it was the Divine saying "Things were rough, but it's in the past. Let's put it to rest with good energy. No need to hold onto the negative anymore."

Wait...

"Things were rough, but it's in the past. Let's put it to rest with good energy. No need to hold onto the negative anymore."

I dont remember this part, so the devine was speaking thru the beau...what had happend in the past?
one other thing that seems strange...his burning of the painting, that didn't upset you in the dream?
Bb, Firebird

I was severely depressed. Severely. I lost a couple years of my life struggling with suicide ideation, psychotropic medication, and self harm.
I'm very much past all of that with hard work, but it made up who I was a few years ago.

And no...I felt relieved when he burned it. In my dream it meant the cat was now going to have, not the painting, but the sky in the painting. It would surround her and become the sky she saw, wherever the afterlife took her.