Everything Under the Moon

Hello all,

Just wondering if anyone could help me. I woke up in tears this morning after a dream and I am now worried about it. Firstly, a little background, my husband and me are trying for a baby. It has been nearly two years now and no success. We also both carry a genetic problem which means any baby could have a 1 in 4 chance of being affected and they die before birth or shortly after. We did have a baby two years ago which died at 17weeks pregnant and I gave birth and held him.

Anyway my dream was that I was in a hospital looking at three babies. They were in incubators (excuse spelling) as they were very ill. My husband and I called them Sarah, Melody and Rebecca. They all had a deformed head and I could not see the rest as they were covered up. I asked the nurse to hold them and she said that the doctor said we could not yet. I could tell Rebecca was dying and I wanted to hold her so much, then the nurse told me I had to leave them for a while so I could have a rest, when I said that there was no way I was leaving my children she said you have to look after myself as I was pregnant again. I was heart broken. I want nothing more to get pregnant but I felt I was letting my three girls down. Then I woke up in tears.

I have had lots of dreams about babies before, but this is my second of a multiple birth and my very first one about the babies being so ill. Today’s being a full moon I wondered if that had anything to do with it.

Well any help would be gratefully received.

Jenny

Hey there Jenny

Though that is a very distressing dream I read it as just your subconscious fear of the possibilities of what could be if you were to get pregnant. Having allready gone through the distress and torment of having a child die it is only natural that your fears are founded and you have my full sympathy - losing a child is the hardest thing anybody can go through.

I understand your want and desire to have a child but you have to look at this from another point of view. You say you've been trying for 2 years to fall pregnant but to no avail - I would take this as a gentle warning that nature is telling you not to.

There are thousands of unwanted babies out there - have you thought about adopting?
Adopting is very fufilling and rewarding and gives a babe a chance at a good, happy, secure, loving home that otherwise would have been denied them.

I wish you all the luck and strength in what ever descision you make and the courage to stand by your convictions.


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