Not New But A Vow To Do Better

[Lephwyn]

Long time no chat!

I came on here about a year ago, made the intro blurb and then ghosted away to the background again like the big ol anti-social lump that I am. When I joined, I had every intention to contribute to the community but I clearly failed at that. I went through a inner battle with repeating to myself that I had nothing constructive to contribute to you lovely folks, even if I did have things to contribute I was convinced that someone else has already shared that info or didn't care about my opinions on the topic. Basically, I was having the convos on topics with myself instead of reaching out to you folks like I should have from the start. I want to learn about others' perspectives, I want to have a discussion regardless of how awful at it I feel I am. I strongly feel like the soul needs to connect with like energy. Every time I ghost on here, I repeatedly take notice of how great this community is, so my fears are just self inflicted.

My soul needed quite a bit of solo time for a while. Time to collect my thoughts and understand my foundations. I feel like in one way it for sure made me stronger, but now I need to learn and dedicate to being more connected with other energy sources. Growth can't happen if you are stagnant.

I'm treating this post like a vow to work harder to be more connected with this community. I may not know where to start, if some topics are too old to re-open, or unsure how to respond, but I try to pipe up at least once a week. If I fail at the once a week, I will work on being more forgiving to myself for my slips and strive to do better the next week.

[SpiritTalker]

Welcome back
What you just wrote was pretty well said. Expressing opinions is the life of a discussion board. By the way it's OK to add on to any old posts that don't have those little "expired" locks on them. People keep browsing them so there are new readers if not new topics.

[Nimueway]

Hi. Welcome back. I really could empathize with your post. I am brand new here and reading through the threads I thought - what could I possibly contribute?

But I, like you, really feel the need to connect with like minded people. So I will stick it out and try to contribute. The problem is I can be flighty. Life tends to heap onto me a lot of responsibility. But I Did decide to have four children. I put myself into busy mode for another ten years at least!

Again welcome back.

[Firebird]

Hi again
Even if you just pop in to say , "hey that's cool, or I like that, or I had a similar experience" might help you get in the groove, eventually you will find yourself contributing more.
Not to worry, we all have feelings of insecurity now and again. Just recently 2 ladies in my group decided to take a break, one a 30 years long priestess and one an apprentice. My first thought was, do I suck? LoL Reel myself back in...this was about them not me
We'll see you soon then eh?
Blessings, Firebird

[SnowCat]

I second what everyone else has said. And I've learned things from stuff new members have posted, so everyone is "good enough" to be posting here.

[Lephwyn]

You all are so inspiring! Thank you for not only sharing similar feelings regarding posting, but also the positive encouragement to keep posting. I have a sneaking feeling that I will be much better this go around than last. I've been doing a lot of thinking about it since I posted yesterday, and I have a few things I want to share, I'm still trying to sort out where to start

[Blu-Luna]

Merry meet and warm welcome Lephwyn! I think a lot of us feel this way sometimes, I know I most certainly do. I deal with a lot of insecurities as well. People here are very nice and always helpful tho, that is what keeps me coming back.

[Lenaleanna]

Yay!!! Welcome back and merry meet!!!
I believe we all have a bit of that in each of us... the "Shy- I don't think I have anything to add- I don't know a whole lot about "this or that", or at least I do... but that is how we learn about things and each other... stepping out of the box and trying... Yay!!! And you did!!! You succeeded in trying and that is better than not trying at all!!! :wink2:

Blessed Be~ Lena