I thought it is time to search some contacts out there...some input and maybe some positive validation and support in finding my own path. Having a background of first traditional Martial Arts and then Yoga, I always kept searching for my inner spiritual home. I came back to reading a lot about Wicca recently and I feel attracted to the Rede, to its openess and to worshipping the goddess and the divine feminine in the many facets it appears in different pantheons. But without some positive input I always hit a wall sooner or later... being too sceptic in some aspects to take myself seriously... and still clinging to the idea, that I have to do it "the right way".
I read about the strong connection to nature, that many seem to feel intuitively...and I say to myself, that I can't belong here, because my love and respect for nature is rather abstract and selective in trying not to harm it. I don't feel drawn to planting a garden or working with herbs...but on an abstract level I find it all holy and worth protecting by being vegan for example (just one of my approaches without intend of being a missionary here). I feel my strongest connection to nature is in the somewhat mysterious love for the night, the moon and the silence and magic they provide...but that doubting critic in me always says "that isn't enough!"
On the same note, my inner image of working magic is somewhat...energetical? Directing energy using an athame or wand feels intuitively for me...and I do somewhat feel drawn to Tarot cards ^^...but I cannot quite form a connection to other methods like using herbs...or astrology...and here again..."that isn't enough!"....I guess it somewhat goes back to internalized rigid structures and ideas of spirituality...shaped by the big religions of the world...the idea, that there is "only one right way" to do things. It is still hard to drop it.
Yeah...that is about it. Thank you for having me here
Jeanne
. Welcome to the chat.
