Increases anxiety, fear of the dark and voices?

[pandoram]

Sorry this post has a lot but here goes.

For the past few weeks since I started doing my rituals and house cleansjngs, I have had an increase in my anxiety at night as well as being really scared of the dark.

I akso experienced something similar to what someone else posted recently. I was meditating and right before I feel asleep during the meditation I heard a womans voice wisper something to me but I could not make our what she said. By the way I'm the only woman in my house. I've never experienced anything like it. It startled me and woke me.

Any thoughts?

[Traumwandlerin]

Sounds like you've learned some things before you were ready. This is not really bad but now have some unwanted side-effects.

That's way people normally tell you to learn how to draw a circle or get your spirit guides first. You probably haven't learned how to feel safe and how to strengthen your boundaries or how to ground yourself. Now you are open to a lot of things and don't know how to protect yourself.

What is your system of believe? How would you protect yourself in this system? Does this sound right to you or do you rather want to do something else? Really, anything will work which let feel you totally safe. Than you can even appreciate all those things you see and hear right now without fear. And even learn. Or you can just block them out. You are not forced to feel those things all the time.

[pandoram]

Thanks so much. I think you are right. I thought my protection was sage smudging which I've wanted to start doing for a long time. Apparently it did not help my fears. I'm not really sure how I would protect myself. I think that I'm going to start trying to figure all that out.

I really appreciate your advice and imput.

[pandoram]

Traum...,

So last night I tried to meditate to communicate with my spirit guide. Did not go very well. After I meditated I kept seeing shadows everywhere in my room. Anyhoo, the other weird thing was that all night long I dreamt about the two babies my mom miscarried. She list one before me and one after me. I have no thought about that for years.

My thought are that they or one is my spirit guide or that my dead grandmother might be my guide. I have always felt her presence in me and have a strong connection to her. She died when I was 8 but the last time I ever saw her was when I was 4. Yet I still feel this connection.

Anyways, thanks again for your post. This is my new goal. To connect and communicate withi my guide.

[)O( Krystal Raven )O(]

my dear, you are powerful and you are gravitating spirits and negative energies toward you. I think some people believe that as long as they have good intentions, evil things will never come around... but this simply isn't the case. Bless and cleanse the windowsills and doors with pure sea salt or kosher salt. If you can walk all the way around your house or apt, take the salt outside also and walk a big salt circle around your house. This will create a barrier that keeps out dark beings.

You need to bless a spirit bell. A spirit bell is a bell you ring to clear the room of negative energy and purify spirits that are suffering. The two dead babies you mention will really benefit from the cleansing tones of a spirit bell. I think that they are definitely your guides and wish to protect you and communicate with you, but they are cloaked in sadness and darkness.

To bless a spirit bell:

Find a bell that rings with a pleasing tone to you. Try thrift stores, antique places, giftshops....

Bring the bell home and place it somewhere high up. A top shelf, a bookcase, on the top of the fridge.. wherever is definitely above your head. Leave it there to charge for two days. On the third day, take the bell down and place it in the center of a table. above the bell, place a sage wand. to the left, place a small cup of water. to the right, place an egg. at the bottom, place a candle and light it.

Now call in the Deity you wish to bless the bell. It can be a specific god or goddess or you can call upon the Universe itself.

Now, say: "Powers of the North, element of air, aspect of the ancestors, hear my spirit bell and empower it." Ring the bell three times.

"Powers of the East, element of earth, aspect of the children, hear my spirit bell and empower it." Ring the bell three more times.

"Powers of the South, element of fire, aspect of the lovers, hear my spirit bell and empower it." Ring the bell three times again.

"Powers of the West, element of water, aspect of the elders, hear my spirit bell and empower it." Ring the bell three times one last time.

Now, light the sage and smudge the bell. Sprinkle the water onto the bell, pass the bell's handle through the candle's flame, and lastly, crack the egg over the bell. This brings the bell to life. Allow the bell to sit where it is for at least an hour before you wash it thoroughly. Don't forget to thank all energies involved before you take the bell out of the circle.

Once your bell is alive and charged, you can use it in any way that your intuition desires. A most common use is to ring it before beginning a meditation and then again at the end once you've fully returned to awareness.

Blessed is your sacred work upon the earth. )O( R )O(

[pandoram]

I will definately do the spirit bell. Thanks so much. I'll try the bell.

[Kaimira]

cool spell mind if i snag it for my BOS?

hi deary i am not an expert witch i am just starting out like you. do you cast circle before you do a spell or a ritual? if not it may cause your problems. take a two sided dagger point it striaght out from you and slowly in one spot to form a circle. i hope this helps you do the same cricle when your done your spells.

[)O( Krystal Raven )O(]

Any and everything you see that you like, take. No worries. Ever. )O( R)O(

[Kaimira]

raven,

people think i'm nuts because i see spirits all the time and it never goes away. they speak to me in whispers. one became angery and smashed my vase. pyshics tell me that i am clairvoyant. i don't know what that means. if i touch people i get this huge massive flash of their lifes. what they done in their past and etc.

[Aniu]

cool spell mind if i snag it for my BOS?

hi deary i am not an expert witch i am just starting out like you. do you cast circle before you do a spell or a ritual? if not it may cause your problems. take a two sided dagger point it striaght out from you and slowly in one spot to form a circle. i hope this helps you do the same cricle when your done your spells.

I didnt want to make a whole thread on this, but is it possible to make an eqaully stable magic circle completly mentally? I just imagine a pentacle around me and it turns into a bubble when the pentagram hit the floor.

[Kaimira]

you need a dagger to cast a circle, you can keep the circle doing it mentaly.

[Ravencry]

I have never used a dagger to cast a circle and my circles hold well enough. Casting a circle mentally works great, you just have to keep diligent focus on it. If you have a hard time keeping focus on keeping the circle up, charge a quartz crystal to sit on the altar that keeps the circle up for you while you perform spellwork.

[Ravencry]

That happens to me too. Or I get distracted, not finish the spell and leave the circle up until the next morning (like I accidentally did on Mabon)

[Danimay54]

I have a little bit of a problem like pandoram, I get really nervous in the dark... I feel like there is something there. I don't really do spells, but when I've been practicing on meditating or focusing on something, and then when I am done I feel like I'm being watched.
Krystal Raven that is a great idea about the bell, for some reason that is the only thing that I took with me when I moved.

[JuniperBerry]

Sorry this post has a lot but here goes.

For the past few weeks since I started doing my rituals and house cleansjngs, I have had an increase in my anxiety at night as well as being really scared of the dark.
I akso experienced something similar to what someone else posted recently. I was meditating and right before I feel asleep during the meditation I heard a womans voice wisper something to me but I could not make our what she said. By the way I'm the only woman in my house. I've never experienced anything like it. It startled me and woke me.

Any thoughts?

(Emphasis mine.)

Are you grounding after ritual and spells? The excess energy from magical work left floating around can cause tension, nervousness, anxiety, and so on.