No dreams at all since six months

[syngerin]

Dear forum, I hope somebody may help me understand this issue and see if there is a solution.

First, I need to say that I've always dreamt a lot and used to remember almost all of them, at least up to the last summer (I think I even had some lucid dreams, but they were so short that I really hadn't the time to do anything - usually when I was really scared, and could find a way to literally fly away from danger).

Now, about two years ago I started seeing a therapist, because I was going to graduate and it was driving me insane. I felt like everything was crumbling and falling around me, I was so scared of the future that I could not see a way to get out of it. I considered running away multiple times, committing suicide and sometimes even pretending to be crazy just to not be forced to face life after school. As it turns out, I had several issues with both my parents, my feminine side and my creativity, which could be some of the causes of this deep fear that I felt.
But after two years, I was even more depressed than before, and it felt as I was staying in a limbo and couldn't get out of it. I understood that, as long as I kept on seeing this therapist, I would have never been able to go on with my life, nor get back the joy and happiness I felt before. It came to a point when I had a breakdown in her office, and after that... I stopped dreaming. That was the last drop. I wrote her a letter, saying that I couldn't see her any longer because she was making me feel even worse, and hid the journal I used to write to keep a record of what had been said in those hours. Slowly I came back to life, and I became convinced that she had scarred me so much that somehow my subconscious decided to, sort of disappear or hid somewhere in order to not get hurt anymore.

Now, six months have passed since the last time I saw her, and I still dream very, very little - perhaps two dreams, and I cannot even remember them. I feel as if something important were missing, and that I cannot keep on healing if I don't start getting in contact with it again.
So, I wanted to ask you if you had any suggestion or spells that I could use to start dreaming again. I do most of my spells in my bedroom, so the energy there should be already okay for this kind of work.
Thank you very much,
Hazel

[North Star]

Here are a few threads that have some tips for recall and lucidity (and some spells). I go through 'quiet' periods with dreaming once in a while and practicing some of these things can really help. Dream pillows are one of my favorite 'spells' for dreaming.


'Crafting dream pillows' by Alura
http://everythingunderthemoon.net/forum ... ow#p187656

'Tips for dream analysis' by Xiao Rong
http://everythingunderthemoon.net/forum ... 24657.html

'Any tips on lucid dreaming' by Kassandra
http://everythingunderthemoon.net/forum ... ra#p181248

'Herbs associated with dream magick' (page 4 in my BOS)
http://everythingunderthemoon.net/forum ... 72-45.html

and here are a few Dream Magick spells from the spell pages here...
http://www.everythingunderthemoon.net/s ... spells.htm

[Kassandra]

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The tips and suggestions members posted on that lucid dreaming thread I started really work! Kind of freaked me out a little, hehe. North Star is the Dream Lady.


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[syngerin]

Thank you very much, North Star! They look really helpful, I'll try them and tell you if they worked:)