Troubled

[Qwerty]

I'm troubled by some relatively recent experiences I've had. They've led me to Wicca to develop a control over my experiences and reverence for the Goddess and God.

These are not good experiences. I am deeply troubled by them and worried about the Threefold Law. I became deeply enraged at a person in my extended family because they don't accept me as a member of the family (I was adopted) from the time I was a child.

Recently I became so enraged that it was as if every atom, nevermind the marrow of my bones, was on fire. And it was as if this person was right next to me. And "to the measure of the person" as I "called out", this person had to go to the hospital within the hour. Same as with a later experience, where she got virulent cancer and is thankfully recovering with mild chemotherapy. I became so enraged it was like I cursed her from the atoms of my body.

I'm deeply troubled by this. Please tell me it was just coincidence, but if not, what do I need to do within the context of Witchcraft/Wicca? I want to learn control, if this is indeed real, so that this never happens again.

[SnowCat]

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[Qwerty]

Can anyone help me with what I should do?

[Becks]

I can't say what the connection is there.....if the instances are connected or not.

It sounds like you experience anger in an acute way. Have you considered looking into exploring that?

[nicola]

I don't have any advice for you, but I think I did something similar recently. After an argument with my partner I became so enraged that when he left the bedroom, I let out a silent scream, my body lifted off the bed and it felt like I was in a furnace. Immediately afterwards I found myself saying "oh no" repeatedly and felt terrified. Ever since my partner's been very accident prone which is out of the ordinary for him and things have fallen off shelves at his feet and things like that have been happening since. I haven't a clue what I actually did and don't know where to start on fixing it x

I should probably note that my head and feet were firmly on the bed, just my body was raised unwillingly (I wasn't floating or anything).

[FoxandAshes]

To respond to you first Qwerty, I don't think you caused her illness. From the sounds of it the family member is a negative person and what you decide to put out into the universe comes back to you. I believe she may have manifested her anger in the wrong way. I feel like as long as from now on you are careful about what you wish for people then it won't happen again. In attendance to a class on shamanism, it was explained that when you yell at someone with some force it actually breaks a piece of their soul which needs to be found. I understand that shamanism is different than wicca but I believe in this. Maybe try preforming a pagan prayer or healing meditation in her name, I hope this helps!

And Nicola, I don't think the items falling from shelves is a displacement of angry energy but I could be wrong. Be careful of this since sometimes negativity from us can stir up negative energy at rest. I'm not denying your power in any way as it is possible for the force of your emotions are causing unusual energy patterns in the house. Try setting up an energy grid or saging the house to remove unwanted energies to start fresh. I hope this helps you as well.