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[Shinkko]

Hello! My name is Shinkko and...I don't know where to begin. I'm 25 now and a proud mother.
I died a few years ago, it was a terrible event that we didn't see coming. I didn't know I was dead, I just saw my memories, and things that didn't happen in this lifetime. What stuck out was the witch hunting, but I wasn't born then...was i?

I came back, when I met my grandmother who died before me. She told me I could go back or stay, but it was time for me to wake up if I wanted to go. Time to wake up

That's when I did, in the hospital where I had machines working to keep me breathing and alive. I was in a coma for 10 days, but that I did die and was shocked multiple times and brought back.

But I saw me die, not like how I died now...I died in my sleep in this life. But I saw myself being tied and thrown into a river.

It's been a few years, I have my son and husband's love...

But I have no friends. My husband doesn't like spiritual talk or anything like that for fear of ghosts.

I have no one I can learn from or just talk to about these things...I've been getting dreams of me dieing over and over again. Different lives I think.i have read all the books I have and studied what I could with the resources I have. I feel like...I don't know it's hard to describe.

My post is long enough so I will end with Hello! And nice to meet you. =)

[SpiritTalker]

Welcome. Glad you made it. This is a place where a good many others have similar, & other, awakening experiences. Gobsmacking, isn't it? Have you ever seen the Barbara Streisand musical movie "On a Clear Day" or Bill Murray's "Ground Hog Day"? They're more fun than books.

[Shinkko]

I've seen groundhog day, it's a great movie! The other one I did not see. There are a lot I haven't seen, my family was Mormon and so my music and movie knowledge is almost 0 because it was censored. When I moved out it was a shock because there was so much to see and hear. My husband has spent our 7 years together showing me new things...and there are still more to see.

I also have brain damage from my coma, a lot of my memories are gone. So we had to kind of restart the showing me stuff because I had forgotten a lot he shown me.

[SnowCat]

Welcome. You're not alone in having an epinaphy. I have some understanding of Mormon ways, since my dad's side of the family was Mormon. I was raised Catholic. Those days are long gone.

[Shinkko]

I didn't mind the religion but a few things I didn't like.
Either way

I keep seeing the future. And my dreams of the girl I think is me back then practicing magic and telling futures to others.she was killed for it.

Suddenly...I find myself wanting to learn the things she knew back then.

[SpiritTalker]

In the sense of the bigger picture, all these events are related. Loss of one set of memories, a clean slate, and voila! The way is opened for retrieval of memories from further afield. We all have our own ways of integrating our fractured parts into one greater, unified whole. That's a nutshell version of what awakening means. There seems to be alot of it going around too at this era of history. The population world wide is going thru a massive shift. The Earth expresses it in fantastic weather events and volcanic renewal. We're part of the Earth. We are all getting a portion of the awakening. It's Cosmic.

[Shinkko]

truly think these days will make the biggest difference to us all. Animals ans humans. The Earth itself. I can only hope us humans learn...but I doubt that.

so many times I've almost died. To be honest the ammount of times made me think I was supposed to die maybe. I'm young, and should have died 8 times before I actually did.

I am a very sick individual, as the years pass since my death I have been slowly getting better. It's like the earth or whoever kept trying to kill me. Accidents where I barely live, being on feeding tubes and wasteing away, drowning when I was a child, sugery gone wrong, and even myself trying to die because I was so sick...twice....when my husband and I met, it was instant we knew each other.

I wanted to live after that...even my pregnancy there was a moment they didn't think I would live.

I think my will to live is stronger than I realize. Or maybe it was practice so I COULD come back.

But now that I actually died and did come back with a glimpse of the 'after life'...I feel like I am meant to do something or that I need to. But I don't know what.

[SpiritTalker]

Is this a concern with why you are here? I'm surprised any of us survive childhood, really. If common childhood disease doesn't snag us we court and temp death to catch us from the day we're born. If our urban environment is short of wild animals to take us down or poisonous insects and plants are in short supply then we leap like blind goats in front of moving cars, fall down hidden well shafts, stumble out of the tops of trees we were told not to climb, get too close to fire just to see how it works or climb the protective rail at Niagara Falls for a better view. Been there, done that. The seat of my pants has worn thin. What normally active kid doesn't wear bandages and a cast or two. Life seems designed to promote species survival by trying to take us out. One way or another. I think you see that & that the strengthening of the will prompts continuance. We're hard wired like this. If nature doesn't provide the ways and means then accidental (cough-cough) events will. Waking up breaks the cycle. Hooray.

Witchcraft has always recognized the relationship between life-death-rebirth. I think we're no different today than our ancient ancestors were. Spiritual growth is seen in sharing the necessities. That's all we mostly need to do to program the group mind to "evolve-dang-it." i think you're here to raise consciousness. Just add on at your own pace to what you've already received.

[Shinkko]

I came here because I feel powerless in my life. I want to learn more of this because...it feels right.

I have so much going on in my life...it's been hell for almost 3 years.

Arizona is a state that does not have CPS. It's dcs and it is powerful than CPS ever was. They can and will pull your texts, calls, eveeything

They don't have to answer to anyone. Dcs is the highest in our state, except a court room judge.

My husband smokes meth. And before you start by saying well it's drugs of course they take your child.

Yes, he was a user. When they took our son he became clean. Has been since they took him.

I have studied and referres to multiple toxicologists who have confirmed that someone who SMOKES it but hugging and kissing and touching aomone can make that someone test positive.

Our son tested positive so they turned to me. Only way it could have been is if I was smoking before when I was pregnant.

I did try when I first met my husband. My stomach didn't like it and I was throwing up. But at the time I didn't see a problem with him doing it as long as it was out of the room.

They don't believe me and haven't regardless of my tests being positive. Doctor wanted to testify but dcs wouldn't let them.

We evtually got him back...but then I saw my soctor. He did X-rays and told me why my back was hurting was bone issues. I need pain medicine.

Now they are back because even thoigh it's perscribed...it's narcotics. A subtance I can abuse. Now they have been testing...they came back after giving him to us. A month later they came and took him again.

So...yes I feel powerless in my life. I've done everything they wanted and they still want give him back.