My Jouney To Krishna (God) Conciousness

[Y0m]

I've been reading the Bhagavad gita for quite some time now. I keep going back to that text over and over again.

I've decided to undertake a journey in my life which is inward, but will force me to release all attachments for the material passions and surrender (or attach) to the lord completely. I will be meditating daily, but other then that, not much else on this path is visible by the observer.

I will do my work in full devotional service to the lord, expecting no fruitive results for my work. I will practice simplicity, humility, even-mindedness, and kindness in confronting those people around me. I will strive to see everything as equal, and also part of the same thing. I will practice celibicy, even with myself, and my ultimate goal will be to become released from the sense passions of the physical body. To do this my mind must always be completely fixed on god and I must be balanced and dicipline in how I take care of myself (eating, sleeping, cleanliness, etc.)

Simply, I'm posting this as a reminder and silent incourager to myself along this path. I've traveled along this path before but I always seem to be tempted off of it. It is a hard path, one that the Gita describes as tasting like poison at first, but then being very sweet later on.

One time I got so far on this path, I became a great yogi. This is simply just an inner knowing. I had no quilms about work, and my mind was always detached and at a great deep peace. I felt as if I were gliding along life aboard a huge cloud of peaceful bliss.

I encourage anyone to try this path who feels ready. Again you dont need to quit your work, simply change the way you think about it. See yourself not as the worker but the deep observer within yourself. Everything you do is also for god, not for yourself or the person whom it may benifit.


Much love,
Y0m

[Kassandra]

I've been reading the Bhagavad gita for quite some time now. I keep going back to that text over and over again.

One of my favorite reads too.



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[Xal]

[Earth Ritual]

Very Beautiful.

[Y0m]

I thought I'd give an update of my progress, complete with some tips for anyone else who may decide to take this path.


I've continually been tested. I found that making a goal (for me 100 days of purity) works the best. Also there is no way you can release yourself from the material attachments and desires of your life without something else to attach yourself to. This is why I have attached myself to god, as suggested in the Gita.

So far, so good. I feel very much alive, and I must only remind myself why I'm doing this and then I get amazing energy to complete any amount of work with no quilms. I can also feel a burning sensation in my chest... which is like a warm burning, and it feels great. And my third eye is very much more active. I almost constently feel the pressure of it between my eyes, only losing this feeling when I have attached my senses to the material world. Sometimes I will be so attached to god that the greatest peace and happyness flows over me. I've begun to care for other's more then anything, and I can't wait to help or give something as a sacrafice to the lord, whether that be work (like this post) or something material. The lord is the only enjoyer & doer, and I'm just along for the ride


I'd recommend this path to anyone. Read the gita, and open your eyes to the truth around us.

Much love,
Y0m

[JBRaven]

I am a little envious I can't go without sex for more than a day before I start acting like a crack fiend.

[Ginger Faith!]

I am a little envious I can't go without sex for more than a day before I start acting like a crack fiend.

Huh? Is that, in any way, connected to this?
Oh lord, im confused.

[JBRaven]

I will practice celibicy, even with myself, and my ultimate goal will be to become released from the sense passions of the physical body.

I just couldn't do it.....

[Ginger Faith!]

Ahh, gotchaa.
hahaha, my bad. I didnt see the connection.

[Y0m]

I am a little envious I can't go without sex for more than a day before I start acting like a crack fiend.

Yes, this was the biggest challenge for me beginning this journey, but utilizing the tekniques i described in my second post I was able to overcome this obiscle.

[JBRaven]

i give a lot of credit for the celibicy, it is beyond me

[Xal]

I am a little envious I can't go without sex for more than a day before I start acting like a crack fiend.

I lol'd

Great job so far Y0m! I'm sure you'll go far.

[Y0m]

Just to add, by practicing celebicy my compassion for the female has been increasing steadily. I now realize how much more suffering they must go through then a male, and I also see that I thought of them almost the way I would think of an animal before I began this journey.

I can also see that, much like some men, there are many women equally consumed with sex in their lives. It becomes toxic almost. More and more of these women are also being drawn twards myself right now. As if an evil is working through themselves to tempt me. Sounds far-fetched to some, but it feels very real to me. But again, I must only stop dwelling on their sex nature and remember god, and I'm freed from this temptation. I never thought I'd get this far honestly, and only a short time ago was cursing god for my not being able to surrender and let go of sex. Oh, how fullish that was by the way.


I hope this gives someone hope.
Much love,
Y0m

[Y0m]

Another great text, which is an extention of the Bhagavad Gita is the Srimad-Bhagavatam. Both of these are available for free online.

Most westerners, I'm finding, have never heard of either one of these texts. They both carry a very deep and profound meaning when studied in detail, although I just found the Srimad-Bhagavatam today, I can tell that there is nothing but truth in its teaching.

[JBRaven]

To me sex it is just as much a part of magic as The Gods themselves, without it life is missing something. And yeas as a woman I can see that us females are just as sexually needy as our male counter parts but we are not as easy to say no to. We are relentless.