So, I dunno, but it seems like nobody cares what I think, feel like, want, or anything anymore.
A few examples:
Every year for a while now, I've gone over to a friend's house on new Year's Eve, slept over, and watched the ball drop. Last year, my friend and I decided we would do it again this year. I told my mother this January 1st, 2010. Then, last Sunday, my mom tells me, "Jessy, you're Altar Serving. Captain again." "Oh, sweet. Today?" "No, January 1." "Uh, mom, that's New Year's Day." "I know." "I'll be at Anna's. Remember?" "Well, you'll just have to cancel." I decided not to make a big deal of it, and figured I'd have my way sooner or later. Then, she shows me the e-mail that the guy who coordinates Altar Serving sent her.
His message:
"Hi, Mrs. _________. I was wondering if Jessy would be interested in altar serving on New Year's as Captain."
"Oh, sure."
"Okay, here's the basic stuff she needs to remember: blah blah blah."
I decided not to make a big deal of it at the time.
I get home from school today, and then I realize that Christmas is on a Saturday this year, so New Year's can't be on a Sunday. I look at the calendar, and sure enough, January 1, 2011 is a Saturday. My mom told me I'd be serving that day anyway.
...
We don't go to church on Saturdays. Ever. Unless Christmas Eve is on a Saturday.
My mom lied to me.
Then I realizes what she's done:
1) Spoken on my behalf.
2) Did so without asking me
3) Assumed I had no plans on New Year's Eve
4) Assumed that, AND KNEW I DID
5) LIED TO ME.
That is the first example of why I think nobody cares.
Every day, I talk to my friends non stop. There are a select few who I'm willing to talk to at all times: G., H., B., C., T.
No matter what. G. is the only guy in that last, so I don't have his e-mail and/or phone number. I have H's e-mail and phone number, I have B.'s e-mail and phone number, I have C.'s e-mail and phone number, and I have T.'s phone number (she doesn't have an e-mail.).
OH. LOOK AT THAT. I have to get off the computer.
Why?
Mom: Jessy, could you please get off the computer?
Me: :type: Could you please wait a second?
Mom:
If I wait, then we don't get your glasses fixed!Me: :type: please?
Mom: Jessy!
How ironic. I'm typing about how NOBODY CARES, and there's my second example, as it happens.
If will finish this post later. As in, in a couple days. It is December 23, at 5:53 P.M. right now. I will put the date and time when I finish this post. Don't be surprised if it's something like January 9, at 6:37. Seriously.
So, feeling unloved and unappreciated, Jess.
