I just find it ironic that I was able to find an odd sense of comfort at a web site for and about witches and witchcraft. I do not know if it was 's sense of humor on her website or what (which brought out the first hearty laughter out of me in almost two months after my saga had begun) but it compelled me to hang out a bit here and to study and experiment. It appears to have done me well in the long run.
Hopefully I made wise choices on my "free spells" thus so far. I especially say this because I am in my ninth month of pregnancy now. I went to the doctor this morning, and she ended the exam and our conversation with, "Go ahead and place another appointment for next week, but I do not think you will make it until then." In other words, I am about to give birth to a healthy baby girl any day now. She will be my first baby. Call me a late bloomer, as I am 39 years old and my husband is 54 years old. But we are happy and about as ready as we can be.
I admit I was stressed about it at first, but after seeing a few testimonials here about women who struggled so hard for years and still are not conceiving, it shed a whole new light on my situation. Especially since I could not recall for months when my husband and I even had time... I mean I recall kissing goodnight but that's it... Erm... Hee hee. But then I was finally able to remember.
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As to the dark side of my saga that began in August? And there was a dark side, and hopefully the baby was not hurt in that mess... Those who wronged me seriously have had serious regrets. It was so bizarre. I did a simple cleansing spell and one to banish negativity, among a few protection spells, and the next thing I hear.... It was weird. I am saying too much and not enough about that part of the saga and I am digressing again too much.
I do not know how much time and energy I will have once she is born. We will see. My husband has NO IDEA that I have been doing ANY of this. I mean, the visits to witchcraft sites, learning witchcraft, and doing simple spells. As far as he knows, I am still just an agnostic looking for a place to land but nothing more.
When he and I discussed possible names for our baby once we learned it would be a girl, you will not believe what name he picked out. I smiled and consented, as it seemed like a nice name for a few reasons, one of which sort of involves this site. It also goes well with our last name plus, like Tolkien's dear old Gandalf, I like hobbits and it has a bit of a hobbity touch to it. (Hobbits like to name their girls after flowers usually and sometimes gemstones... examples Rose and Diamond)
We are naming her . I swear to you, my husband picked the name seemingly out of the blue.
I have to go now. I hope to be back, but just in case I get too sidetracked, I just wanted to say goodbye and thank you.
