heart broken

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I have been with my husband since I was 17. We have two sons together and we have raised his daughter and my oldest son as our own without the other ex-partners. I was raised to caution love and to always count solely on myself. However, after my husbands accident and the death of his youngest daughter I was spiritually drawn to him. I felt like he would never hurt or betray me. We have had issues our entire marriage because of external situations. We have battled so much...but in the end we were still together. I always held the belief that one day once we worked threw our issues and financial/family was no longer a factor that we would finally be happy. For the last two years I was betrayed by a close freind having a serious affair w/my husband. She was able to provide the emotional support and spice that I was unable to provide due to my life stressors. Now she gave birth to a son because of the affair. I do not want to see the child cause it will be a constant reminder of the affair and betrayal. Now that she knows I know she was acting very sorry and tried to refresh our friendship. I was cautious but thought...keep your friends close and your enemies closer. But within days they were back to their ways. My husband shows no remorse but says he wants to be with me not her. SHE IS GOING CRAZY... and wants him but is playing the vicitim saying she loves my kids and does not want to break up our family. I want her out of the picture. I don't know EITHER of their true intentions with their relationship and the future of my marriage! Everything is so unclear. Not knowing hurts more than knowing cause I am going crazy with all the,"who, what, when, where's" I am seeking guidance on my marriage and the intentions of both the ex-friend and my husband. I am so heart broken!!!! I feel like I am getting mixed messages from them both and I have so much more than my heart on the line...

Anne Marie

[[cherokeewind]]

In your situation, it probably would be best if some of us on the board sent you some positive energy to help out. Just say you need some positive energy sent your way and I'm sure there will be a few who want to...

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Yes...I truly need some positive energy...
PLEASE, send positive energy my way.


thank you

[[cherokeewind]]

Yes...I truly need some positive energy...
PLEASE, send positive energy my way.


thank you

Ok, I will do that...would be nice if a few others on the forum could too. You may also need some clearing of a chakra/chakras. There was a time in my life when my energies seemed to be blocked. This can happen during hard or troubling circumstances, as these continue on and don't ever seem to end.

Chakra meditation is the answer, every day or as often our schedule permits. The best kind of chakra meditation combines the use of crystals. I used it several years ago (for a few months), back when my chakras were in need of repair. I've just added the info to a chakra meditaion thread. Here is the link.

http://www.everythingunderthemoon.net/f ... php?t=3016

We all are in hard times now, so I've started doing it for myself again...my chakras are not blocked or in need of repair yet, but why wait for things to get that bad. Due to the world crisis taking place...I think everyone should consider a meditation technique for repairing the damages caused by our present negative enviroment..