requesting energy for healing and blessings

[sunshine6180]

I am new to the forum and decided today that I will search until I find exactly where I need to be. : Today, I am asking for support from what I like to call my newly found friends. I have had a lot of heartache and pain throughout my life and at this point, I am ready for a change! I don't want to get into the gruesome details of everything that I have been through, or for that matter what I am going through now but I want to be in a posistion where I can afford to provide for my family in all aspects. I lost my job in December because of the bad karma I created (at least thats what I believe). I am behind on my bills and can't afford to take care of my family like I would like to. My education is limited (on paper) and I have other issues in my life that I allow to burden me so I can't stay focused long enough to even begin looking into bettering my education. I want to perform the spells I found but I can't afford to buy the materials/tools I need to perform them. I have a really hard time meditating and I don't understand it because I have allways been a naturally creative person until recently. I want to help myself but I feel that I am getting no where. I don't have anyone to talk to that I can trust and this right now is my ONLY option . I have a feeling that I am connected to someone in this forum that will help me, I just haven't found them yet . I said I wouldn't make this long I am just typing what comes to mind anything that I think I can give for you all to be able to help me better. I don't know... I am so cofused about myself right now and I feel so bad because I think I am too old for this, but in any event, I need to find my way. I do know exactly what I want for my life I just don't know what to do to get it. So PLEASE I ask if anyone could ever be so kind to send me blessings and energy of healing for my soul, heart and mind so that I can be clear and focus on those other things that means so much to me. Thankyou

Forever Greatful

[Traumwandlerin]

You know exactly what you want? Write it down Here, where anyone can read this. This will give you energy.

[sunshine6180]

Thank you, this is what I want. First and foremost I want confidence in myself, I want to be sure of myself and my work at all times without the need of approval from anyone else, I know this is supposed to be somthing natarual but it went away and I can't seem to find it. I want to be happily married and in love, mostly to my current boyfriend but only if he feels for me the way I do for him.I want him to have eyes for only me and no space in his heart or imagination for any other woman, and it would be nice if he could be more open and affectionate lol... I want to have all of my children living with me like they should be. I want to give them all of the things I wasn't given as a child...their own mother, I want them to proud to claim me and to look to me as a role model (my relationship with my children is very important ot me). I want to start my own successful business so that I can allways be here for my family, set my own schedule and I don't have to worry about getting fired or loosing money for sickness or anything else, just always making money.I want my drivers license and a car so that I can get around and won't have to depend on someone else. I want my own home something that I can leave for my children to have when I am gone. I want to be and feel healthy again I am a slim woman by just looking at me you would never guess that I gave birth to four children, but internally I feel like it. My last childbirth was tramatic, I had the baby successfully but hemoraged shortly after giving birth and I haven't been able to move like I used to since. I want happieness for once in my miserable life, I want to know what it feels like to be generally happy. I want to be powerful in my own sence, I want to be able to focus, to meditate to manifest into exsistance whatever I want and need at the drop of a dime. I want to be a really good witch, I believe that this is my calling I have been told over the years that I have special abilitys and I do feel that there is something inside me but I just can't put my finger on it, I just know that since the day I found tis site, it seems to be the only thing that's right in my life. I know my list is long, but I do believe that when I come into my full abilitys, whatever they are, I can and will have everything I want. Thankyou so much for asking me that question, a few months ago I couldn't answer it, but I am so determined. I am absoluteliy, positively sure of what I want and need.

[Traumwandlerin]

Your list is not long, it's perfect

But I guess some points could use a bit fleshing out. Like "confidence in your life". That is really important, do you can imagine situations or actions how this confidence would manifest itself in your life? How would all this feelings and ablities show themselves in your everyday life?

But your list is nice. It took me quite a while to figure out my list and it needed a lot of working to know what I want in my life ^^

The more detailed your list is, the more vivid will your imagination become. The more you believe it's possible, the more it will come into your life. I would recommend visualisation to help yourself